Posts tagged physical health
After meeting my hematologist, in January, I started thinking about my health and what I need to do to make it better. He told me I have to stop smoking, start exercising, and lose weight. Smoking and all the extra weight I’m carrying increases my already high risk for stroke, blood clots, heart attack, embolus, and deep vein thrombosis. Those factors no doubt attributed to my high blood pressure and diabetes as well. I’m at a point where if I don’t do something to turn the decline of my physical health around it will kill me sooner rather than later and I won’t be able to carry a baby full-term. I can’t handle another miscarriage.
A few months after I graduated high school I embarked on a journey to lose weight. I succeeded. I lost 100 pounds in eight months, but I did it in a less than healthy way. I took prescription diet pills and I severely restricted my caloric intake. It got to the point where I would fast 3-4 days a week and on the days I would it, I wouldn’t eat more than 500 calories. I isolated myself from everyone. I was starving myself. My family was worried about me and there were rumors of me using meth to lose weight, which were untrue.
I skipped work today. I was awake until almost 6am thinking about that Oprah show and my past. I was too exhausted to deal with people. I knew I had a doctor appointment at 2 so I intended to get some sleep, go to the doctor and then work the rest of my split shift. It didn’t work out that way. After the doctor, I went home and fell asleep and woke up too late to go to work.
Well, I have finally found out what caused all of my miscarriages so I can stop blaming myself. I had a transvaginal ultrasound a few months ago and the doctor found that I have Adenomyosis. They also ran a Lupus panel, which required 14 vials of my blood. The results showed I have Antiphospholipid Syndrome. Apparently, it’s a serious diagnosis so my doctor wanted to wait 4 months and do the test again to see if it was transient or persistent. I had it done again a few weeks ago and got the results by mail today. I tested positive again and they are demanding I schedule an appointment asap. Isn’t that lovely?