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Shawna is Harassing Me Again
1 year ago
in Events, Relationships
David and/or Shawna tried to ruin my Christmas Eve. However, it didn’t work. All he/she accomplished was getting Granny pissed off. I think it’s pathetic that he/she/they would wait until Christmas Eve to try to stir up drama, but that’s Shawna’s style. She tries to emotionally hurt people as badly as she can. Her tactics don’t work on me anymore. I’d have to give a shit about what they thought for that to happen and quite honestly, I couldn’t give a fuck less.
The only reason I am writing this is because Granny asked me to do so. She said, “I want you and Jess to tell that spiteful bitch that I SAID THIS SHIT BETTER FUCKING STOP! This is bullshit! Our family didn’t have any fights or trouble like this until that BITCH-WITCH came along. She needs to grow up and stop bothering you. So does David Leslie if he’s involved in this crap too. IT’S BULLSHIT!” Anyone who knows my Granny knows she can’t stand the ‘F’ word. She only uses it when she really means it. I’m posting Granny’s warning because I know Shawna still obsessively stalks me via my blog and social networking sites despite the protective order, so this is the best means to get it to her without actually having to interact with the evil cunt and violate my own protective order.
Granny, Mom, Jess, and Taylor all read the messages. Mom is convinced it was all Shawna, pretending to be David and doesn’t even think David knows about it. Granny and Taylor think Shawna did it all, but that David knew about it. Jess and I think David and Shawna both were doing it. I want to think what my mom thinks, but I don’t. None of us think it was David acting alone. Shawna was definitely involved in the harassment, which is a direct violation of the protective order.
For those of you who aren’t Shawna, David, or know either of them you’re probably a bit curious about what this is all about. If you’ve been reading my blog for a couple of years or if you’ve read old posts then you have an idea of what’s going on. For those that don’t, I’ll explain.
Tough Decision Made
I’m feeling much better emotionally. Sugarbear and I had a good talk last night. He sent me another pic of him all smiley and gorgeous. I’ve known him for over three years and we’ve been, as lame as it sounds, courting for the past year, as of December 12th. I’m ridiculously attracted to him. He still gives me butterflies, just as he did from day one. We are still a bit guarded with each other sometimes, but he opened up some tonight.
He’s off his pedestal, but I still want him. No man in my entire life has kept me interested without sex for a year. The closest was Erick, with eight months… and I thought Erick and I moved painfully slow. Haha, if I only knew then… Well, come to think of it, I’m glad I didn’t know what was going on because I really loved Erick with as much as my heart as I could and had I known the truth from the start, I would not have experienced that with him. Not excusing him, but I know things would have been very different and I don’t want that. He’s turned into a jerk, either that or my blinders are off and I have the benefit of hindsight. Can’t change the past but I can prevent it from repeating.
Update on Shawna the Abominable Cunt
3 years ago
All has been quiet on the Shawna front the past few months, since shortly after the judge granted the protective order against her. I’ve seen and talked to my brother a few times since then but haven’t heard a peep out of her and it hasn’t bothered me a bit. In fact, the only time I’ve even given her a thought is when someone else brings her up. Her absence from my life and the resulting peace has been great. Filing for the protective order was the best decision I could have made.
I’ve heard bits about her here and there, especially during the few weeks my mom stayed with them. The only new thing I heard was that her friend Lisa paid for the DNA test and that Aiden is David’s biological son. I didn’t believe it for a second though, and neither did anyone else in my family. After a couple of weeks, Carah told me that Shawna had lied about the test being done. I wasn’t surprised a bit. Shawna is a pathological liar and has a hard time being honest about anything.
I hadn’t thought about her again until last week, when I had to give the family member she stirred so much shit up about a ride home from work. I had been around him a few times since the truth came out, but never alone, and we hadn’t talked about what happened between us so many years ago. Since we were alone he took the opportunity to broach the subject. It was highly uncomfortable, but after almost 2 hours straight of talking about it, we have come to terms with it again and we both have closure. Now our relationship can start to heal. I only hope his marriage can do the same, but she may have done irreparable damage to it by bringing up all that dead history.
I hadn’t thought about her again until last night, when I opened up an email from Lisa, one of her closest friends. I almost didn’t open the email because I didn’t want to get dragged into more drama with Shawna. Nevertheless, I opened the email and this is what it contained:
Our Relationship is Starting to Hit a Few Snags
3 years ago
Before I took Paul to his business appointment late last night he was dicking around on Facebook. I don’t usually pay attention to what he’s doing online but he pulled me over to him when I was walking by his chair. I happened to look at the screen and see an open IM from a woman he had told me a few minutes before was someone in his family. This woman was telling him she missed him and wished she had a snuggle buddy and he parroted what she said. Seeing that IM added fuel to an already smoldering fire because of a few text messages I seen on his phone from his ex a few days ago. It instantly pissed me off, for obvious reasons, and I confronted him about it.
He assured me it was nothing to worry about because she lives in Kansas and there has never been any sexual activity between them. He also said it was just harmless flirting. I said if he had seen a similar conversation between another man and me he would be hurt and pissed. He said he didn’t think about it that way and I was right, then he apologized and said it wouldn’t happen again.
I told him he needs to stop leading other women on otherwise we are going to have some serious problems. Then I mentioned what I knew about his conversations with his ex. I asked him if plans on leaving me and moving back to where she is. He said he had no intentions of ever going back to her and he only maintains contact because he loves her daughter like his own and he wants to make sure she is alright. Then I asked him if his ex knows he doesn’t want to get back together with her and he said probably not. I asked him if he saw anything wrong with that and he started getting defensive. Then I asked him how he would feel if the situation was flipped and I was leading one of my exes on. He seemed to understand my position at that point.
Dinner with Paul and His Family
3 years ago
Paul and I had a rude awakening yesterday morning. My grandpa walked into my room without knocking and turned on the overhead light. Paul and I was sound asleep and naked. Apparently, I was asleep on my back and the blanket wasn’t covering my breasts.
I instantly woke up when the light came on and I turned onto my belly as quickly as I could. I’m not sure Pawpa saw anything or not and I’m sure not gonna ask him. He should’ve known better than to just barge into my room like that anyway. After Pawpa left, Paul’s aunt barged in and then my mom. We were starting to get very pissed off about it, so we locked my bedroom door and went back to sleep.
A couple hours later I had to get up for work. I knew I’d only be working half a day because Paul talked me into going to his family’s Christmas dinner with him. They planned to have it the 13th because many of them are going to be out of town for Christmas.
I was nervous about going and I had been worrying about it for a few days. I was afraid they would all hate me or vice versa, but it was important to him that I be there, so I sucked it up and went.
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