Posts tagged Directv
It’s been awhile since I checked in with my personal blog because I’ve been devoted to creating and updating a webzine for bipolars. I don’t want my blog associated with it because I have learned (thanks to Shawna the Super Cunt) that people will use anything they can against you and your loved ones when they feel so inclined and want to hurt you. I didn’t want all the drama to carry over to my webzine so I have been stealth around here. I also did not want the two associated because I have been painfully honest about people and events in my life and I want to keep it secret to an extent.
I have missed the catharsis usually accomplished by pouring out my feelings and getting shit out in the open through my writing. I struggled with the decision whether to make “Reflections of a Crazy Life” a private or subscription only blog to prevent it from causing more pain and turmoil in my real life. I chose against privatizing it because that would have violated my purpose for creating it in the first place. Besides, the worst has come to light and I’m still here to tell about it… “Sometimes you gotta say, ‘What the fuck!’”
I have been focused on little else besides my websites, job, and peace of mind the past couple months. My romantic life was getting a bit unruly, so I had to put it on the back burner. The only person I’ve spent a significant amount of time with outside of work lately is Tori. We’ve both been enjoying time away from the rest of the world. She’s been helping me stay grounded. She has bipolar disorder as well. We’ve had several episodes together over the years. Both of us have learned a lot about our illness and we try to support each other. I love my Tori. She’s the one person who completely gets me and loves me no matter what happens.
The decision to focus on my job worked out. Around the end of June, I was chosen to take the Expert Technical Support Representative exam and I aced it. I earned the TSR 3 title and a $1.02 per hour raise. We had a center-wide shift bid shortly thereafter and I got one of my top picks which was Sunday-Wednesday 11-10pm.
About a week and a half ago, Kurt, my former supervisor approached me with an offer to switch to another department. That department, the Welcome Center, was created about four months ago, and I was approached then to join the team. I declined because I liked my shift and the team I was on and the available shifts for the Welcome Center sucked ass in my opinion.
All aspects of my life are going fabulous; quite a change from the constant turmoil of the past several years. My career is progressing well, my home life is satisfying, I have great friends and family (with a few exceptions), things have heated up in the romantic arena, and the EEOC is finally getting the ball rolling with the complaint I filed against Directv.
It has taken some getting used to, but I am accepting the good things as they come. I am genuinely happy, and it is a huge relief to know it’s not the fake happiness of a manic or hypomanic episode. I have found stability, on my own.
With a little help from my favorite herb I have clawed my way back from the depths of the black hole of depression, which wasn’t an easy task by far, but it has made me even stronger and I am proud of myself. Of course my life isn’t perfect, but nothing ever is in reality.
I am at the point right now where I do not give a damn about Erick. It is an amazing feeling. I never thought I would see the day when a part of me did not yearn to be with him. Moreover, the best part is I concluded this without seeing him.
This point has been a long time coming. It sure as hell did not happen overnight, but that does not matter: the important thing is that the time is finally here and I am ecstatic about it.
Someone special has come into my life. I have been attracted to him since the first day I laid eyes on him at Directv. I have been fighting the feeling for several months, but the time is nearing to say something. I cannot let fear hold me back any longer.
This morning Tracy Tibbels left me a voicemail regarding our conversation July 9th. The following is a transcription of the message.
Hi, Jennifer, this is Tracy calling from Directv. After, um, speaking to you last week regarding your request for information out of your personnel file I did call Corporate to be sure that I had given you correct information. And I can give you copies of anything in your personnel file that, uh, you were required to sign. That would include: like your scorecards and, uh, like I said anything you had to sign or were given to sign. I’d be more than happy to make copies for you. Um what I would need you to do is just call me back and let me know how you want to pick up these documents or how you want me to get these to you. I can definitely drop them in the mail to you, but I would need to verify to make sure I have a correct address before I do that. I would hate to have them end up somewhere in La-la land. So give me a call back, my number is 280-****. And we can make arrangements for giving you those copies. Thanks.