'we all go a little mad sometimes'
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Nicknames:
Mercedes
Harpo
Slim
My Greatest Dream:
I want to live in a nice house in suburbia with a huge backyard, white picket fence, ivy and rose covered trellis, a beautiful garden, a pond, a porch swing, and most of all kids running around being kids. I want my kids to have a childhood and be safe. I want to be able to protect them from the things my parents couldn’t protect me from. I want a marriage where my husband is not only my lover but my best friend. I want to be able to be myself and not worry if he really loves me. I want to have complete religious freedom – I want proselytizers to leave me alone and let me worship the way I want.
Testimonals
1. From Ferocious Things Forensic Lab….“Where does one begin about Jen, she is an enigma wrapped in a conundrum rolled into a paradox. I know little about her except what I read on her weblog. Perhaps that’s what makes her so interesting, the air of mystery that lingers in cyberspace long after she’s visited your site. Someday Jen may reveal her true self to us all. Until then, the engineers at ferocious Things Forensic Lab have created a composite of all the best “Jennifers” currently in the world as our Jen is clearly the top of the Jen line having a whole planet named for her and all. Behold, I give you Jen, a.k.a. Jennifer Jason Leigh Anniston Love Hewitt Connelly Grey Lopez.”
Theories
1. The Theory of the Two Degrees of Jennifer
A theory (similar to the Six Degrees of Kevin Bacon), which states that if you don’t know a Jen yourself, at least one of your friends or acquaintances does.
2. The Theory of The One Jennifer
Conceived by Kyle Hasselbacher, The Theory of the One Jennifer suggests that there is only, in fact, one actual Jennifer, and any Jennifers you might meet are really all the same person.
If you have a testimonial or theory to contribute, please email me at bipolarchick@bipolarchick.net
55 Facts about Me:
1. I’m a work in progress.
2. I procrastinate.
3. I’m good cook and a major neat freak.
4. I adore kids.
5. I have experimented with drugs.
6. I’m addicted to cigarettes and pop.
7. I love to flirt.
8. When I get really pissed my ears turn bright red. (Or so I’ve been told)
9. I blush easily.
10. I hate spiders.
11. I have to get my way.
12. I’m a good friend.
13. I rarely cry.
14. I hate to be pitied.
15. I love fat snobby cats.
16. I do my best to have no regrets.
17. I hate going along with the crowd.
18. I enjoy solitude as long as I choose it.
19. I have suicidal tendencies.
20. I give good advice to everyone except myself.
21. I’ve made a lot of bad choices.
22. It takes a lot to overwhelm me.
23. I love myself, but not as much as I should.
24. I only hear what I want to hear.
25. I read more into things than I should.
26. I dramatize too much.
27. I’ve made a lot of mistakes, but I have learned from them.
28. I’m getting better at admitting when I’m wrong.
29. I have a hard time admitting certain things to myself and others.
30. I won’t give people the satisfaction.
31. I have simple dreams but they’re always just out of my grasp.
32. I’m hard to get to really know. I expose myself in layers because I’m afraid that if I am completely myself then I will be rejected and alone.
33. I’m easy to love, but I get scared and fuck things up.
34. I can be cruel (usually in self-defense or self-preservation) which I often feel bad about later.
35. I’m jealous of other women, but I’m working on it and I’ve come a long way.
36. I hate hurting people emotionally and I will do almost anything to keep from doing so, even if it makes me miserable.
37. I always feel inferior.
38. I don’t know how to be happy without screwing it all up. No matter how hard I try I can’t maintain happiness.
39. I’m never satisfied with myself. I expect perfection.
40. I have a hard time asking for help.
41. I work my ass off.
42. I push people away when I feel emotionally threatened.
43. I’m a giver. I give til it hurts. I would do anything in my power to bring other people happiness.
44. I’m my own worst enemy. I relentlessly judge and criticize myself and usually assume that everyone else does as well.
45. When I feel bad, I make myself feel worse by blaming myself for everything.
46. I always want what I can’t have and if I get it I usually lose interest.
47. Before I consciously do something I usually think about how it will affect everyone involved and I often sacrifice my own happiness to make others happy.
48. I give my trust until it is violated. However, in romantic relationships I have a hard time trusting my partner completely. I always have little doubts in my mind.
49. I tend to stereotype.
50. I usually know within 5 mins of meeting someone if I will ever like them. I can read people well.
51. I sometimes use sexual performance to gauge if I want to stay with a person.
52. I place to much importance on sex.
53. After a rough day I like to go in the bathroom, run a hot bubble bath, turn off the lights, light a few candles, turn on some soothing music and let all my stress melt away.
54. I enjoy physical pain – mostly from razor blades or needles.
55. I strongly believe that everything happens for a reason and that without love (not just romantic love), there’s no point to life.
Mercedes
Harpo
Slim
My Greatest Dream:
I want to live in a nice house in suburbia with a huge backyard, white picket fence, ivy and rose covered trellis, a beautiful garden, a pond, a porch swing, and most of all kids running around being kids. I want my kids to have a childhood and be safe. I want to be able to protect them from the things my parents couldn’t protect me from. I want a marriage where my husband is not only my lover but my best friend. I want to be able to be myself and not worry if he really loves me. I want to have complete religious freedom – I want proselytizers to leave me alone and let me worship the way I want.
Testimonals
1. From Ferocious Things Forensic Lab….“Where does one begin about Jen, she is an enigma wrapped in a conundrum rolled into a paradox. I know little about her except what I read on her weblog. Perhaps that’s what makes her so interesting, the air of mystery that lingers in cyberspace long after she’s visited your site. Someday Jen may reveal her true self to us all. Until then, the engineers at ferocious Things Forensic Lab have created a composite of all the best “Jennifers” currently in the world as our Jen is clearly the top of the Jen line having a whole planet named for her and all. Behold, I give you Jen, a.k.a. Jennifer Jason Leigh Anniston Love Hewitt Connelly Grey Lopez.”
Theories
1. The Theory of the Two Degrees of Jennifer
A theory (similar to the Six Degrees of Kevin Bacon), which states that if you don’t know a Jen yourself, at least one of your friends or acquaintances does.
2. The Theory of The One Jennifer
Conceived by Kyle Hasselbacher, The Theory of the One Jennifer suggests that there is only, in fact, one actual Jennifer, and any Jennifers you might meet are really all the same person.
If you have a testimonial or theory to contribute, please email me at bipolarchick@bipolarchick.net
55 Facts about Me:
1. I’m a work in progress.
2. I procrastinate.
3. I’m good cook and a major neat freak.
4. I adore kids.
5. I have experimented with drugs.
6. I’m addicted to cigarettes and pop.
7. I love to flirt.
8. When I get really pissed my ears turn bright red. (Or so I’ve been told)
9. I blush easily.
10. I hate spiders.
11. I have to get my way.
12. I’m a good friend.
13. I rarely cry.
14. I hate to be pitied.
15. I love fat snobby cats.
16. I do my best to have no regrets.
17. I hate going along with the crowd.
18. I enjoy solitude as long as I choose it.
19. I have suicidal tendencies.
20. I give good advice to everyone except myself.
21. I’ve made a lot of bad choices.
22. It takes a lot to overwhelm me.
23. I love myself, but not as much as I should.
24. I only hear what I want to hear.
25. I read more into things than I should.
26. I dramatize too much.
27. I’ve made a lot of mistakes, but I have learned from them.
28. I’m getting better at admitting when I’m wrong.
29. I have a hard time admitting certain things to myself and others.
30. I won’t give people the satisfaction.
31. I have simple dreams but they’re always just out of my grasp.
32. I’m hard to get to really know. I expose myself in layers because I’m afraid that if I am completely myself then I will be rejected and alone.
33. I’m easy to love, but I get scared and fuck things up.
34. I can be cruel (usually in self-defense or self-preservation) which I often feel bad about later.
35. I’m jealous of other women, but I’m working on it and I’ve come a long way.
36. I hate hurting people emotionally and I will do almost anything to keep from doing so, even if it makes me miserable.
37. I always feel inferior.
38. I don’t know how to be happy without screwing it all up. No matter how hard I try I can’t maintain happiness.
39. I’m never satisfied with myself. I expect perfection.
40. I have a hard time asking for help.
41. I work my ass off.
42. I push people away when I feel emotionally threatened.
43. I’m a giver. I give til it hurts. I would do anything in my power to bring other people happiness.
44. I’m my own worst enemy. I relentlessly judge and criticize myself and usually assume that everyone else does as well.
45. When I feel bad, I make myself feel worse by blaming myself for everything.
46. I always want what I can’t have and if I get it I usually lose interest.
47. Before I consciously do something I usually think about how it will affect everyone involved and I often sacrifice my own happiness to make others happy.
48. I give my trust until it is violated. However, in romantic relationships I have a hard time trusting my partner completely. I always have little doubts in my mind.
49. I tend to stereotype.
50. I usually know within 5 mins of meeting someone if I will ever like them. I can read people well.
51. I sometimes use sexual performance to gauge if I want to stay with a person.
52. I place to much importance on sex.
53. After a rough day I like to go in the bathroom, run a hot bubble bath, turn off the lights, light a few candles, turn on some soothing music and let all my stress melt away.
54. I enjoy physical pain – mostly from razor blades or needles.
55. I strongly believe that everything happens for a reason and that without love (not just romantic love), there’s no point to life.
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