The past week and a half has been eventful, luckily most of it was neutral or positive. I used to underestimate the worth of peace in my life. I thrived on and chaos; it could make me feel alive like little else could. These days I appreciate peace; having it improves my quality of life, which in turn helps me from falling into an episode.

Things that have happened this month, in no particular order:

I returned to after being out sick for three weeks

I started again

I spent time with my grandparents, nieces, nephews, and other members

I got to see and talk to my brother

My mother moved out

I got a new supervisor

The anniversary of my sister’s and birth

I made peace with the that haunted me most and I honored my lost child

My former pastor, whom baptized me, lost his battle with and passed away

I began treatment with a new therapist

Most of the damage caused to my familial relationships was repaired

’s pedestal has finally been completely demolished and I see our situation clearly

I got to see ’s new band perform live along with a couple other local bands

Researchers and psychiatrists, among others have been stressing how much brain chemistry has to do with Bipolar disorder and its for quite awhile now. I do agree with them, however, from personal experience and reflection I know that life experiences and my reactions to them can greatly affect the severity and length of my , particularly depressive .

I feel an upswing coming my life and I’m looking forward to it after several months of moderate isolation and a shit-ton of .

On this day..