I had another counseling appointment today. It was a continuation of the intake session. They ask a shit-ton of questions to help them gauge where you’re at, what significant traumatic/dramatic experiences you’ve endured, and the areas you need help with to become “emotionally healthy”. Typically, intake is completed during one one-hour session; however, I’m not your average “victim”1 and briefly touching on the worst events in my past took the entire session last week.

This week she asked me questions about the household dynamic during my childhood and adolescence, drug history, my current support system; how I feel about my mother, etc. We covered a lot. She said I’m under way too much and if I don’t find a way to cut it down then I will soon find myself in another episode, which I already know.

She gave me two assignments this week, the first is to find something to do just for myself, that gets me away from and home and let’s me be free. She suggested grabbing my mp3 player and going for a walk. I wouldn’t really feel comfortable walking around my neighborhood, so I’ll probably leave early for a few days a week and hit the trail near my job or go walk the track at my old high school. I’ll give it a shot. If nothing else it will be time away from my mom, which I seriously need.

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  1. God, I hate that term [↩]