Shawna's House of Cards Will Fall
I thought I’d never see the day that I regretted my friendship with Shawna. Well, obviously, that day did come. I wish I didn’t get sucked back in the last time we had a falling out. I would definitely do things differently if I could.
Truth be told, there was always a part of me that didn’t like who she was. I saw her manipulate man after man to get what she wanted. I was a little envious of how she would get them to do her bidding, but mostly, I was disgusted by her behavior.
I knew the things she did was wrong, but I never made a move to intervene because she was my friend and true friends protect each other and they never stab each other in the back. I overlooked the wrongs she committed against me in the past because she was my friend and I loved her, flaws and all. I was naïve enough to believe she felt the same about me. Now I realize I was terribly wrong. I was just another expendable sucker to her and she turned on me for not standing idly by while she trapped my brother.
A part of me thinks that what she has done to my brother is my fault. Maybe if I had called her out with one of the many guys she targeted in the past she wouldn’t have been around to catch my brother in her web of deceit and manipulation.
It sickens me to know the hold she has over him has caused him to turn his back on those who love him the most. However, I have accepted that there is nothing more I can do about it and it is time to let it go. Time will show my brother exactly who she is and what she has done to him and our family. I’m certain he will be devastated when that happens and I’m helpless to stop it, but I will be there for him, to help pick up the pieces.
I’m grateful that my family is wise enough to see her for who she is and to not turn on me because all the lies she has told. That part of her plan backfired. She overestimated her ability to manipulate them. The combination of her stunts has caused many of them to draw a line and they want nothing to do with her. I hope that David’s doubts of her continues to accumulate and her latest ploys will be her downfall where my brother is concerned. Even if they don’t, I have faith that he won’t be blind to her true self forever. Someday we will have David back and it will make us stronger as a family.
On this day..
- I Got My Mojo Back! (part 2) - 2005
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I’m a thirty-something bipolar woman, an advanced tech agent with a pay tv provider, tax preparer for a local charity, current Tulsa inhabitant, and I’m one credit shy of an Associate Degree in Liberal Arts. I’m working on recovery from self-injury and working toward stabilizing my bipolar symptoms. Recovery is very important to me. I’ve been mostly single the past few years and plagued by a seemingly never-ending series of jackasses, assholes, and married men. I have no children of my own, but I have lots of nieces and nephews I love to spoil.