didn’t have the nerve to go to the final protective order hearing on the 15th. I thought I would automatically win if she didn’t go, but that wasn’t the case. There was still a hearing; the only difference is she wasn’t there to lie about what had been going on. I didn’t bring my witnesses because I had heard Shawna didn’t plan to appear and I figured if there was still a hearing I had sufficient evidence to prove my case.

I showed the judge the comments that she made pretending to be other people – the ones I prevented from being posted on my blog as well as the ones that I did allow to be posted. I also showed him my cell phone records, a copy of the police report and the entire 25 page transcript of the text messages from September 29th. He looked at the comments and the first 2 pages of my phone records then he granted the final protective order for the full three years. He didn’t even have to look through the rest of my evidence to find that she was guilty of harassing and (cyber) stalking me.

I had talked to the night before the hearing and she told me that when she got home last Sunday night and Shawna were there. She said talked to her a little, but Shawna wouldn’t even look at her. She thought that was funny. Tori was unsure how long they were there before she got home, but she said they left shortly after she got there. I was curious how much bullshit Shawna tried to stir up before Tori got home.

After court, I went to eat lunch at a member’s job. He was busy and didn’t get a chance to come out and talk to me, or so I thought. After I finished lunch, I went over to his house. I knew Tori was there watching his . We talked and hung out and I played with the and stuff. I felt like a burden had been lifted by the judge’s decision.

He works split shifts and he got home about two hours after I got there. He immediately began doing housework and stuff and didn’t really talk to me. I figured he had a rough day or something and needed time to unwind. He left awhile later to pick his wife up from . Tori, James and I went to the other room and started watching “Scarface.”

About halfway through the movie, his wife walked into Tori’s room and asked James to go into the living room because she needed to talk to me. She sounded a little confrontational. I sat up and tried to prepare, but I had no idea what she was about to say.

She said, “Why didn’t you tell me what he [talking about the family member] did?”

I instantly knew what she was talking about, but hoped it wasn’t what I thought. I asked her what she was talking about while I fumbled around for an answer and she asked me again. She said, “Why didn’t you tell me he raped you?”

My jaw dropped. I couldn’t believe she was bringing that dead history up. I was dumbfounded. I looked at Tori and she had the same expression on her face. Then his wife looked at her and asked her if she had known about it. Tori sat there in stunned silence.

His wife kept asking me over and over if it was true. I didn’t want to answer the question for several reasons, but none of them were because it wasn’t true. I didn’t want to answer because it was true, but I had forgiven him over a decade ago, long before he and his wife even met.

I asked her why she was asking me that and she said that she had already talked to and told her it was true. Then she said that when David and Shawna came over Shawna had asked her to go outside with her and talk. She said that is when Shawna told her about it. She said that Shawna said I had told her about it a long time ago; when she was the family member, but that she knew I was lying because I had let him live with me. She also said that I called him out about it on my blog and that I had told her and David that I was concerned he would sexually his daughter. Shawna told his wife that David didn’t want her to tell her but that she thought she had a right to know I was lying about her husband. Then Shawna kept asking her to tell David that Aiden looks like him.  She said that she told Shawna she would, but that she no intention of telling David that because she doesn’t think Aiden looks like David. She said the only part of Aiden that looks anything like David is his eyes, but they only look like David’s because they are blue. Shawna and Lee also have blue eyes. She said Shawna went on and on for over 45 minutes about it and other things about me.

I was flabbergasted. I am definitely not a liar and I knew she wasn’t going to let it go without an answer. So I told her the truth. I told her about the sexual abuse I endured for years, but I also told her that he and I had come to terms with it a decade ago and that he has changed since he became a father. I also told her that I have no worries whatsoever about the possibility of him sexually abusing his daughter because I know he would NEVER do that. If I was ever concerned about that it was very briefly, but I don’t recall ever thinking she would be in danger. He was abused as a child too, which I will not go into detail about and I believe that is what made him act out and abuse me too. I knew Shawna was a lowlife cunt, but even I didn’t think she would sink that low.

It was bad enough when she was lying about me to people I don’t know or people that I dislike, but now she is bringing even more of my family in the mess. She doesn’t give a damn that she is hurting her husband’s family by spilling long buried secrets and twisting them up in her own sick way. She has no morals or sense of decency. She wants to make me suffer at any cost. She doesn’t care how many others get hurt in the crossfire… all because I told my brother the truth about her and because I don’t believe her newest baby is my brother’s biological son.

I don’t care how angry someone gets at another person, there are some lines that aren’t supposed to be crossed and so far she has crossed some major ones. I have been known to be vindictive and vengeful, but even when I get that way I don’t cross certain lines. I have a code; obviously, Shawna doesn’t have such a code. She is morally bankrupt and scrupleless. Hurting my family is just collateral damage to her. She doesn’t give a damn, as long as she is able to bring me some pain along with it. If there really is such a place as Hell, she has surely earned a ticket there. “Fucking Cunt” doesn’t even begin to fully envelope the type of person she has become. As if she hadn’t done enough already to deserve my hatred, this new development has made me hate her more than I hate and Pete, combined. I honestly wish the bitch would drop dead.

She obviously doubts the paternity herself, otherwise she wouldn’t keep deflecting and trying to turn my family against me while trying to ruin my credibility. Her latest plot backfired though. I don’t think she thought his wife would have the nerve to ask me about it. I think she thought his wife would just take her word for it. She is obviously deluded about how my family feels about her. They don’t a word she says, especially now. I can’t believe she risked putting his marriage and family in jeopardy to get back at me. She truly is an abominable human being.

The protection order states:

The court orders: the above named Defendant to not commit further acts or threats of abuse. Additional terms of this Order follow on succeeding pages.

The terms of this Order shall be effective until October 15, 2012 at 5:00PM.

Warnings to Defendant:

This order shall be enforced, even without registration, by the courts of any state, the District of Columbia, any U.S. Territory, and may be enforced on tribal lands (18 U.S.C. S2265). Crossing state, territorial or tribal to violate this Order may result in federal imprisonment (18 U.S.C. S2262).

Federal law provides penalties for possessing, transporting, shipping or receiving any firearm or ammunition (18 U.S.C. S922(g)(8)) with penalty up to $250,000 fine and 10 years in .

Only the District Court can change this order.

FINAL ORDER – DOMESIC ABUSE AND/OR STALKING. Following hearing of which Defendant had notice and opportunity to appear and respond, the Court finds that the Defendant represents a credible threat to the physical safety of the Petitioner. Defendant is prohibited from possession of firearms or ammunition for the term of this Order.

THE COURT FURTHER ORDERS:

Defendant to have NO CONTACT with Petitioner, either in person or by telephone, at any time or place.

Defendant to not abuse, threaten, injure, assault, molest, stalk, harass, or otherwise interfere with Petitioner and not damage or injure any property in which Petitioner has any interest.

It is further ordered: No Electronic Contact

The Order goes on to give penalties for violations and such.

I believe this latest stunt is a violation of the protective order because she is “otherwise interfering” with me. She has continued to violate it by sending his wife emails about me as well. His wife is going to print them and file a witness statement when I file a complaint with the police. I’m done turning the other cheek. I’m going to do my best to have her prosecuted. I want this shit to stop.

On this day..