has overstepped yet again, but this time she made an even bigger enemy out of my sister. lives with ’s mom1. Jess and I just got off the phone and she was telling me about Shawna and going to visit Larry2 in a few weekends ago, which she had already told me about back then, but apparently, it was still an issue until last night, when my sister proved Shawna lied.

After the visit, Larry called his mom to tell her what Shawna was telling him about me about my blog. As I understand it, Shawna told Larry that I wrote in graphic detail about him sexually abusing me and Jessica when we were younger, among other things. Apparently, she also made him think I had posted his full name, DOC number, address, and everything else. She also allegedly told him that she knows I was lying and no one believes my story anyway.

Jess was livid when Pearl (her grandma) asked her about my blog and told her what Shawna was saying. Jess was pissed off because she said Shawna basically indirectly called her a liar as well. At that point, Jess told Pearl and Susie (Larry’s sister) about Larry molesting her when she was a kid, and also defending me. She also read my blog and searched for the things Shawna said I wrote, which were not there. So now they know Shawna is a lying bitch as well.

Jess hates Shawna more than ever now. She says, “That bitch is almost 30 years old and she needs to grow the fuck up. She had no fucking right to talk about shit she knows nothing about…” My sister threw in quite a few more expletives and opinions of Shawna’s character and I wholeheartedly agree with every deduction she made about Shawna and this entire lurid situation.

Shawna has successfully ripped my brother out of my life; she even went so far as to delete me from his MySpace friends list while he was working out of town. I hate her for fucking up my relationship with my brother, conning him into marrying her skanky ass by convincing him she is pregnant with his child, throwing my miscarriages in my face, and now for kissing the ass of the lowlife sonofabitch that sexually and physically abused me for the majority of my childhood. She is so desperate for someone in David’s to like or accept her that she has resorted to trash-talking me to the man who is primarily responsible for many of my issues.

As my sister said, no matter what Shawna does or says, she will never be a part of our family. Some of them may be civil to her or even pretend to like her to her face for my brother’s sake, but when it comes down to it EVERY single person in our family HATES her and we all enjoy Shawna-bashing. She is, was, and always will be an outsider in our family.

She has done too much harm to my family for me or most of them to ever forgive her. I even doubt my ability to maintain civility in the off-chance I see her. I know my temper and it has a tendency to snap and flare up uncontrollably in the presence of someone who has wronged me or my loved ones half as much as she has, so I honestly what I will do if I see her (after she gives birth to whoever’s kid she is carrying). Whatever will be, will be, and at the end of the day, she WILL get what is coming to her, whether it is brought on by me or karma, that cunt will her actions.

I don’t want to sink down to her level and start spreading lies, but I will, however, spread the truth about her and that will be far more damaging than any of the bullshit lies she has spread about me.

I heard something else through the grapevine recently. She has changed her mind about the paternity test. She doesn’t want one done. I know she made that decision because she knows the baby isn’t David’s biologically and she doesn’t want it to be proven by DNA testing.

Her due date is August 1st and it is based on the baby’s growth. If you count back exactly 9 months (if you go by conception date a woman is actually pregnant 40-42 weeks) the date is November 1, which is a full 9 days before she and David ever had . If date of conception is 11-9-08 then 40 weeks from then is August 16th.

’s last period started October 24th, 3 days after the spotting Shawna counts as her last period, and her due date is August 22. It is also based on the baby’s growth. How does 3 day difference calculate into 3 weeks difference in due date? I have looked at it from every aspect and the math does not at up in any of the scenarios. The odds of that baby belonging to my brother are about 1 in a trillion.

I know it, my family knows it, Shawna knows it, and deep down David knows it. If she had a shred of decency and dignity Shawna would be honest and admit the truth and stop trying to make me out to be a villain for looking out for my brother. Asking her to be decent, mature, or dignified is asking far too much from her though, so I won’t even waste my time.

I have confidence that the truth will come out, David will wake up, and this whole sordid mess will be put behind us and I’m not going to let it get me down in the meantime. She can do or say whatever she wants, I don’t give a damn. She is just a temporary fixture in our family, she will eventually be tossed out like the garbage she is.

On this day..


  1. Jess’ & David’s grandma [↩]
  2. my ex-stepdad [↩]