My birthday was Sunday, May 3rd, but I had the party Saturday night. I had a great time. However, two people that I care about didn’t attend – (my brother) and . had to the overnight shift, so I understood and it wasn’t a big deal. I knew he’d make it up to me later. My brother wasn’t informed of the event or invited. I didn’t invite him for a couple reasons: we haven’t spoken since February and he would have brought the lazy, lying, manipulative, spiteful bitch/cunt he married and I don’t want her toxic ass anywhere near me. I kept it small because I have more with people I am comfortable around. The attendees were , , , , Andy, Lisa, Tim, Dena, Matt, and Jeremy. Around 3am a most unlikely and unexpected person showed up… .

Andy and Jeremy were the first ones to arrive. They were pretty early and called it the VIP party. We started drinking Absinthe and Jager bombs after we broke in Andy’s new dual vaporizer. We were pretty damned buzzed by the time everyone else starting showing up. They caught up pretty quick. We were playing the Godfather on PS2 when Dan arrived. Then we moved on to Guitar Hero World Tour. Andy tried to sing, Dan showed off his expert guitar skills, and Jeremy and I took turns playing bass and guitar. No one was coordinated enough to try the drums.

Lisa and Tim came after the Blues Traveler concert and they had the most catching up to do. Everyone was shitfaced by the time they got here. Lisa made me drink more with her, so I drank the most out of everyone. Andy ended up passing out on the loveseat and Jeremy prayed to the porcelain god a few times. I held my liquor very well, didn’t get pissed off at anyone, didn’t and cut, and didn’t puke. Go me!

Dudney was drunker than everyone and blacked out. I don’t know if he started texting Nick or if Nick texted him first, but he asked me if I knew where to get some bud for Nick. I hadn’t spoken to Nick since the whole fiasco last autumn. I had no intention of doing him any favors and told Dudney no. Shortly thereafter he came back into my room and handed me his phone. It was Nick.

Nick said Dudney invited him over but he wanted to check with me first to make sure it was okay. I told him it’s Dudney’s house too and he’s free to invite people over. He said it was obvious I didn’t want him here and he said he wouldn’t come over. I said that was fine and gave the phone back to Dudney. About five minutes later Dudney came back to my room and wanted me to talk to Nick again.

He said he only lived about a mile away and he wanted to come over. At that point, I didn’t care and I told him fine, but not to expect much from me. He was here with a friend of his a few minutes later.

I left my room to get another drink and Nick was standing in the dining room. He asked me for a hug and I told him we’re not there yet. I wasn’t going to just run to him as if nothing had happened. He betrayed our friendship and it hurt me a lot. That just didn’t magically disappear when his relationship with Tamara blew up.

I went back to my room and he followed me. He kept saying how much he wished he had listened to me back then. I got a little bit of satisfaction from that but not as much as I expected. He asked if I hated him and I told him no, but I don’t like him very much. He understood and said he knows he has a lot of ass-kissing to do to get back on my good side.

Those were the highlights of the conversation. They stayed until about 4:30am. I was the last one standing and passed out about 7am. I had to go to work at 3. I was amazed I wasn’t still when I went in.

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