I dropped around 2pm today. He had to meet with his ex so he could go see his . We were up almost all night talking, cuddling, and having . About an hour before I picked him up, I started spotting a little. I did the please-don’t-let-my-period-start-yet prayer and lucky for me I didn’t start.

Last night, when I first picked him up, he was in a shitty mood because his electric was shut off and he still hasn’t had any luck finding a permanent job. There aren’t any CNC machinist jobs currently available in Tulsa. He’s been off his anti-depressant for a few months and he’s been trying to fight off the on his own.

He isn’t bipolar, but he struggles with depression and anxiety. It’s gotten worse since he lost his job and can’t afford the medication, which is a common scenario, especially in the current economy. I feel lucky that I’m finally out of my depressive episode and I will do what I can to help him through his.

His mood quickly improved after we got back to my place, we talked quite a bit because we didn’t get to spend much time together this week. He was busy job hunting and doing day labor to try to scrape together for his rent and I was working, dealing with the insurance company, and trying to get a car.

He helped me pick out my car Tuesday and then we went out to dinner. I took him home afterwards and hung around a little while then went home. It was the first time we hung out without having sex since we started seeing each other.

We smoked a little to relax and then started letting go of the that built up over the week. Shortly thereafter, we started kissing and before long, our naked bodies were intertwined with each other. We enjoyed each other’s body for more than seven hours before we finally fell asleep spooning. We woke up two-three hours later and did it again for another four hours.

We would kiss, neck, fondle, and tease each other for quite awhile. Then we would have sex for a while, and then we would start the foreplay process all over again. We had very little downtime. He loves exploring my body and he enjoyed getting me off several times before he would let me return the favor. I even let him view the sacred arsenal of lotions, oils, cuffs, paddles, gloves, ticklers, beads, gels, body paints, and sex toys. I don’t let just any lover do that.

This new relationship is working out well so far and I’m loving life. It’s not “perfect,” but it’s close. I’m being careful to not let my hormones override red flags and thankfully, there haven’t been any yet.

I made a table to evaluate our relationship and the things I like about him.

Positives: Negatives:
Sense of humor

Intelligent

Sexy

Non-judgmental

Understanding

Open-minded

Great in bed

I him

I feel safe with him

Doesn’t want to change me

We have intense and can barely keep our hands off each other

He enjoys being with me as much as I enjoy his company

He loves kids and dogs

We have several common interests and characteristics

 He’s moderately depressed

Unemployed1

Separated2

His ex lives with his parents

He has kids3

On this day..


  1. not a major issue because 1. he’s not trying to get me to support him financially; 2. he’s actively looking for a job; 3. He’s a CNC machinist and the field will pick up again [↩]
  2. legally he’s still married and can’t afford to get a divorce yet [↩]
  3. I have nothing against his having kids, I kids, the downside is they bind him to his ex for at least another seventeen years. [↩]