sent me more messages after I posted my previous entry, surprise, surprise. I only got a small part of the ones she sent before because the character limit on my cell phone. I got the others via yahoo offline messages. Some of the messages I did get were her trying to nullify the reasons I doubt the paternity. The others were just her trying to goad me. Sorry, but they didn’t . If anything they made me doubt her even more.

She swears that the doctors say by the time line only can be the father – yeah fucking right. If they did say that, I’m certain she wasn’t honest with them. I didn’t just pull the possibility of not being the father out of my ass. There are several reasons to doubt the paternity and I mentioned them in my last post.

She also said that she’s only known her doctor for about a year. If that is the case then she lied to me before or she has a different doctor now. Shortly before she found out she was pregnant she had to have another biopsy to see if the ovarian cells came back. When we were talking about it back then, she told me that her doctor is the father of a friend of hers and she has been going to him for years. Now she is saying she has just been going to Planned Parenthood all these years. Make up your fucking mind, Shawna. Which one is it?

She reminded me about Lee standing her up the two weekends before she and David had . That doesn’t mean he didn’t get her pregnant before then. She was fertile through the first week of October and they had several times then and the week after. She didn’t mention her period going beyond a couple hours of spotting on October 21st and if it had I’m sure she would have said something. Therefore, that still means Lee (or someone else) could be the father. I never said I was 100% sure that David isn’t the father. I said that the possibility is very small and I will stand by that until I see scientific proof otherwise.

She said she doesn’t have preeclampsia. My Grandma told me about it at my Grandpa’s birthday party. She said that David told that Shawna has preeclampsia and high blood pressure and they are worried she may get gestational diabetes. I’m not sure who misunderstood or exaggerated what, but I was just going by what my Grandma said.

Shawna also told me that David was working out of town on our Grandpa’s birthday and he didn’t know about the party, which is why he didn’t go. I don’t know whether David knew about it or not because at that point I hadn’t talked to him in about three weeks.1

She also said that now my brother has caught me in lies, bullshit, I haven’t lied about any of this shit. Think about it, why would I lie when I know she reads my blog and tattles about every little thing?

Then she said she has talked to almost everyone in my and they all say I’m a pathological liar, which is also bullshit. For one, my would not say that, especially to her. For two, I am not a liar of any type. In fact, anyone who knows me the slightest bit knows I hate lies and liars and I sure as hell don’t lie. My overt honesty and bluntness usually gets me in hot water with people, but I prefer that to dishonesty.

Only two people I can think of may have called me a liar and they are Pearl and Susie, but I seriously doubt they did. They are related to and David, but not me. Pearl is David’s grandma (she’s aka my ’s mother) and Susie is David’s aunt. She’s Larry’s sister. They don’t even know me. I have only seen them three or four times in the past 10-15 years. They don’t like me very much because I was honest about what Larry did. Nobody wants to believe someone they is a child molester and rapist.

We all love my brother a lot, but he is the only one in my family known to be a pathological liar. I don’t say that because I’m mad or to be mean, I say it because it is the truth. Every since he was old enough to compose sentences he lied about tons of things, usually things that didn’t even matter. He admits himself that he lies excessively. Some of us used to joke, “How do you know when David is lying? His lips are moving.” Shawna is a known liar as well, so at least they have that in common.

She says that I’ve been trying to break them up, which is not true, and I ended our friendship because of it. She says that because when my brother asked me things about her I told him the truth. I’m not going to lie to him for her. I hate lies.

The final straw came after my brother asked me if she had ever cheated on someone. I told him I didn’t want to get involved because she would just think I was trying to start shit between them. He was working out of town at the time and he was worried she may be cheating. He said that she told him she was staying with her friend, Rachel, while he was gone. He said Rachel lived in Sand Springs and so does Russ2. I told him I didn’t know Rachel. He said that Shawna said Rachel’s house is a dead zone for cell phones so if she didn’t answer her phone it was because she was out of range.

He said, “She has Cricket and don’t they still have the message that the user you are trying to call is out of range when they are out of range?” I told him they do and then he told me that his calls would ring until they went to voicemail. That’s why he suspected she might have been with Russ or someone else and ignoring his calls. After that, he asked me again if she had cheated in the past. I told him I don’t know if she’s cheating on him, then I reluctantly told him that she had cheated before. I wasn’t trying to start anything; I just answered his question truthfully. He specifically asked me. I didn’t volunteer the information. In fact, I had avoided talking with him about Shawna as much as possible because I didn’t want to be dragged into anything. I didn’t go into detail about her cheating episodes. He promised he wouldn’t say anything to her about it, that he just wanted to know if she’s capable of cheating. He broke his promise and confronted her.

Early the next morning she began text messaging me. When I woke up I had 14 messages from her and it pissed me off. She was accusing me of not telling him the truth. She assumed I was referring to when she was fucking Russ while she was married to Kendall, which I wasn’t. Kendall cheated on her one time and they separated. They still lived together, but he slept on the couch. He thought they would work it out, but she started seeing Russ. I didn’t count that as cheating even though she was married because they had separated.

What I was referring to when I told my brother she cheated was the time she fucked Darrell Lee while Kendall was out playing a gig. That was before Kendall cheated on her and before they were separated. Darrell Lee was the lead singer of one of the local bands. Kendall was a bassist for another local band. One night I was at the bar with Shawna and she started hitting on Darrell. A little while later we when back to her and Kendall’s house and she fucked Darrell in her and Kendall’s bed. However, I didn’t want to argue with her and didn’t feel like I needed to defend myself to her. At that point, I was sick of the bullshit and fed up with her. I just wanted to end the friendship.

She is a psychic vampire and I didn’t want her sucking out any more of my energy with her dramatic bullshit so I told her to lose my phone number and leave me alone. I blocked her from Myspace because I knew if I didn’t I’d have a ton of shitty emails from her by the time I got home from work and I have ignored her since. She tried posting comments on my blog, but I blocked them and the IP address she was using.

Shawna also said that she is going to get a DNA test so she can rub the results in my face. Good! I hope I am proved wrong. As I said previously, I hope the baby is David’s and if it is I will apologize for questioning the paternity. I won’t have a problem saying I was wrong. I just want to know the truth. However, as I said before, I still strongly believe the baby does not belong to David.

She said that she plans to keep the baby away from me as well. That bothers me, but oh well, I can’t do anything about that. If the baby is David’s and he chooses to keep me out of their lives I have no control over it and I’m not going to get down about it. I think it would be shitty on his part because I haven’t done anything wrong. All I have done is be honest with him about Shawna and the situation and try to protect him, but whatever. It’s his life; he can do whatever he wants with it. Eventually, the true cunt Shawna is will present herself to David and he’ll his decisions.

I don’t want anything to do with her. After this last barrage of offline messages, I removed and blocked her from my yahoo buddy list. Arguing with her is futile because if you can get a word in edgewise she doesn’t listen. Fuck that, I don’t need the .

This is the first real relationship he’s had in over six years and the whole thing progressed at light speed – married after 4.5 weeks of . That is so foolish, especially in a society where more than half of all marriages end in divorce. I have known Shawna for more than a decade and she is a man-eater. I have seen her hurt and use many men over the years. I rarely intervened because she was my friend and I didn’t care about those men, but this time it’s different. The man she is with is my baby brother. Her relationship with him has me hyper-vigilant. I have every right to be concerned for him. I am his sister and I will always try to protect him.

The bottom line is I don’t care who my brother is with, I just want him to be happy. If the baby isn’t his and he decides to raise it, along with her other , I don’t care. Children need a father figure and he will be good to them. I just don’t want him doing it under false pretenses.


  1. I haven’t talked with David since the beginning of February because I had to have his phone shut off. Jess and I let him get a phone line on our Family Talk plan a few months ago. He used the vast majority of the anytime minutes, used all the rollover minutes, and then used many overage minutes. His first bill was due in January and he still hasn’t paid it. His part of that one was $115. I covered his portion with part of my February rent because he was working out of town. When he got back to town, he was supposed to pay me back. He didn’t. I called him 6 days in a row to find out what was going on and he ignored all those calls. I left him voicemails and he didn’t bother responding. He just blew me off. When I got the February bill, it was $399.09 because he used so many minutes, so I tried to call him one last time and he ignored that one as well. Consequently, I had his phone shut off. I wasn’t going to continue letting him run up the phone bill and expecting me to cover it. [↩]
  2. one of Shawna’s exes [↩]