The chains that bound me to certain people have weakened near the point of disintegration and I’ve given myself a clean slate. As a result, I am de-stressed and I can breathe freely.

This whole being happy thing kinda scary. It’s been awhile since I’ve considered myself happy. Since I’ve been off the , I’ve been paying attention to myself, watching for signs of a or an improvement.

I see a drastic improvement. However, I’m afraid a episode could be creeping around the corner. So far, I haven’t noticed any significant . Nevertheless, my is somewhat disturbing. Right now, I’m trying to figure out whether I’m “happy” or if I’m nearly “euphoric.” While the latter feels post-orgasmic, it signals an impending nosedive. I don’t feel post-orgasmic currently, but I do feel ecstatic1.

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  1. perhaps residual effects of the x I did a few days ago or the fantastic I had with someone I actually like [↩]