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Questioning Things
This entry was posted on Friday, August 8th, 2008 at 11:05 am
Sometimes, I wonder if I was better off before the bipolar diagnosis and subsequent medication regimen, therapy, and mental illness education.
They say ignorance is bliss. I would not go that far in this particular case, but knowing what I know about my illness makes me constantly question my thoughts, motives, moods, behaviors, and feelings. Oftentimes, I cannot make heads or tails of why I am doing the things I am, behaving the way I am, or even thinking some of the things I think.
I must say I have been a lot more clear-headed since adjusting my medications myself. I had to make the changes because I was sick of feeling so disconnected and just plain blah, not to mention feeling like a guinea pig for the drug companies and doctors.
The fact of the matter is I don’t know what the long-term consequences of the changes I’ve made are going to have, but presently, things are going fine. I am content with my life: I am having fun, making friends, and becoming more of the person I want to be.
On this day..
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