and I just returned from hanging out with . I hadn’t seen him in about a month. The three of us went swimming at Tamara’s house earlier. We had to have back home by 7:30 because his ankle monitor would have went off. I got him back a little late but he said it wasn’t that big of a deal.

His mother was home. She’s cool. I just found out tonight that really likes me. I’m surprised. From what I’ve heard in the past Nick’s mother doesn’t like most of his girlfriends and she likes them even less once they are exes. I think she knows I care about Nick and that I’d never intentionally hurt him or fuck him over.

He was being very flirty. He tried to kiss me and he kept groping me. Then he sent me nude pictures of himself. It was a little strange but I must admit that I enjoyed it. I flirted back. It was harmless .

He also told me that he was talking to his cousin Adam about me before he came over and Adam told Nick that he wanted to do me. I thought that was weird because Adam doesn’t like big women usually. I mentioned it to Nick and he said he told Adam the same thing. Adam said it was because he knows how sweet I am. I got a kick out of that. I’ve never thought of myself as a sweet person.

I also found out that Nick wasn’t repulsed by me when we were together, he was just scared of us getting too involved. He has been royally fucked over by women in the past so he is as leery of relationships as I was. I had convinced myself that I was repulsive and he didn’t want me, which is why I self-injured so often while we were .

This is an interesting turn of events. Men are starting to crawl out of the woodwork again. Woohoo, social butterfly time, let’s hope I don’t go slutty again.

On this day..