What Have I Been Doing?
I have not been writing much the past four or five days because I have been transferring my websites to a new host. I have four of the five transferred and ready to go now. I am still working on this one; transferring this one is a lot of work because all the information contained on the site already and I am still learning PHP.
I have also been hanging out with Dan, Tamara, Tori and others a lot. I have not had much free time to write. We were hanging out until almost 6am this morning. They were drinking and then started singing karaoke. I recorded most of the songs and I will post them to Myspace later. I already have many pictures posted there. We have a shit-ton of fun together.
Tamara is crushing on Dan’s friend, Chris. She was sitting on his lap and flirting like crazy. Dan and I thought it was hilarious. They invited Tamara and me to a party they are having tonight. That should be interesting. It is good that I am coming out of my shell and joining the living again.
I have also been adjusting my medications myself. Since I started smoking marijuana again, I have been weaning myself off the Lamictal. I think the doctor had my dosage far too high. I am feeling better everyday. I do not want to relapse back into the episode I just came out of so I will keep a close eye on my behavior.
I know my doctor will have a shit-fit, but I do not give a flying rat’s ass at this point. This is my life she has been playing around with and I feel like the medication regimen was not working – and she was not hearing me. I gave the doctors over two and a half years to find the right combination; now, I am going to try to find it myself.
If the Lamictal actually works, fine, I will go back on it, but as it seems right now, that drug was keeping me moderately depressed. The Lexapro made me not give a damn about anything and it took away my ability to have orgasms, so I stopped it again as well. I stopped taking the Adderall and Ambien too – there were not any major side effects with either, but they can be addictive. I did not notice any side effects with the Abilify so I will continue taking it and the Wellbutrin XL for now and see how that goes.
On this day..
About BipolarChick (599 posts)
I’m a thirty-something bipolar woman, an advanced tech agent with a pay tv provider, tax preparer for a local charity, current Tulsa inhabitant, and I’m one credit shy of an Associate Degree in Liberal Arts. I’m working on recovery from self-injury and working toward stabilizing my bipolar symptoms. Recovery is very important to me. I’ve been mostly single the past few years and plagued by a seemingly never-ending series of jackasses, assholes, and married men. I have no children of my own, but I have lots of nieces and nephews I love to spoil.