'we all go a little mad sometimes'
Experimentation
Dan, Dani, and Andy just left. Tamara is still here. We tried ecstasy for the first time last night – well, actually around 2am this morning. The pics above were taken while we were conducting our Ecstasy experiment.
I felt some amazing things; both comfortable and awkward. It’s good to feel again. I’m learning a lot about myself right now. I am coming out of hiding.
After reading all those books and listening to so many doctors, counselors, and therapists, I am a bit confused about what I am feeling. I feel very good. I am not bogged down with all the bullshit that is going on with Directv now – only things that directly affect my senses matter: the plastic beneath my hands; the chair cushion against my back; and the carpet under my feet.
On this day..
-
You're right. It's not something I'm going to make a habit of. I just wanted to experience it.
I can definitely understand how one could love Ecstasy. I won't say I felt that, but it was pretty damned close. Having three others feeling similar things at the same time had quite an effect as well. It was a great connection.
It's a good thing I started my period, otherwise, I'd probably have molested Dan, LOL.
-
#3 written by Chan 4 years ago
I had an experience with Ecstacy too. Indeed, it was a rather interesting one, I had not(and haven't since) experienced anything quite like it, it scared me a bit too mind, enough that I didn't really want to try again (in fear of wanting more!)
God to hear you sound like you know what you are doing, well with the drug experiments anyway
-
-
-
#6 written by Chan 4 years ago
Jesus, hard to explain, but will try.
To set the scene, I was at a club where they played quite heavy hard house, my fave type of music, but I was feeling really tired so thought I'd try an E to keep me awake (and dancing).Tried half of one with my then best mate, nothing seemed to happen, so we both took a whole one and god, did I feel it! Anyway, when I started to feel weird (like I was sweating buckets and drinking as much of water) I thought it may be better to walk home as I hadn't a clue what to expect and was a bit scared.
The fun started when I went to get my coat (which was hanging on a hook). I seemed to have lost all feelings in my fingers, or rather, I could feel the material to the core, but couldn't figure out if this was my coat. That was weird….I think my mate experienced the same, she had to look in the pockets of hers to find something that would give her a clue (an old sweet did the trick!) – so anyway, after deciding I must have the right coat somehow, we made our way home, by walk, and although I knew the area really well, I could not recognise anything!! but I knew we were going the right way – now that was well strange too! (I have since heard of people not being able to find their house for a few hours even though it's right there in front of them!).
When we got back to hers, the fun really started – my brain and eyes couldn't keep up (she experienced this too), so it was a bit as if things were going in slow motion, you know, like when you watch the 10 million dollar man and he is running. That was quite freaky! My emotions went up and down as well like a yoyo, one minute I was laughing my head off, the next I was crying. Apparently, I peed in the armchair (so my mate tells me but I don't believe her – surely I wouldn't have done that without realising!!?) – lots more weird stuff happened that night, I think we went to bed at 7 or something, but still not really able to sleep.
I had a strange episode the day after too, I was home speaking with my man and suddenly I turned round and thought my jacket had caught fire, it was like a vivid allucination, and that really freaked me out – so I thought: no more of that stuff!! But still I am glad I tried it, now I know.
Do try and recount yours to us please!
-
You must log in to post a comment.
- Comment Feed for this Post
I miss mania and hypomania […]
Hmm, one shouldn't need ecstasy to learn a lot about oneself. Do be careful with this experimenting with drugs, the only reality you will find is an altered one.