I find myself attracted to Dan. WTF? He is only 19 years old – that alone should be enough to deter me from pursuing anything with him, but it isn’t. I assumed he was 23 or 24 when I first met him and I still find it difficult to believe his true age. He’s more mature than many guys I’ve met my own age. I think of him as a man, not just another guy.
He has some great qualities: he is honest, loyal, funny, sweet, intelligent, creative, and trustworthy. To top it off, I’m physically attracted to him as well. He possesses every quality I look for in a potential boyfriend. I have yet to discover a major flaw… I’m waiting to see what is lurking.
The most negative thing I know about him thus far is that he has bipolar disorder as well, which in my opinion isn’t much of a negative. Bipolar disorder certainly sucks at times, and can make life a living hell for awhile, but it does not change a person’s core personality.
I’m not certain if he’s attracted to me or not. There are some positive clues, but there is also the chance I am only seeing what I want to see. He has been coming over almost every day for the past two weeks. Usually, when he visits he spends between two and six hours with me – that time is typically spent talking. It had been a long time since I had an intelligent conversation with a man. We can talk about anything and I don’t get uncomfortable at all.
When he leaves, he gives me a bear hug, which initially made me a little uncomfortable due to my antipathy to being touched. Now I enjoy Dan touching me.
Tamara keeps pushing me toward sleeping with him but I have been holding back. I enjoy my newfound friendship with him and I do not want to jeopardize it – for the first time in a long time I want to get to know someone. I think a relationship needs to be built on a solid friendship.
On this day..
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- Crossroads - 2006
About BipolarChick (599 posts)
I’m a thirty-something bipolar woman, an advanced tech agent with a pay tv provider, tax preparer for a local charity, current Tulsa inhabitant, and I’m one credit shy of an Associate Degree in Liberal Arts. I’m working on recovery from self-injury and working toward stabilizing my bipolar symptoms. Recovery is very important to me. I’ve been mostly single the past few years and plagued by a seemingly never-ending series of jackasses, assholes, and married men. I have no children of my own, but I have lots of nieces and nephews I love to spoil.