I find myself attracted to . WTF? He is only 19 years old – that alone should be enough to deter me from pursuing anything with him, but it isn’t. I assumed he was 23 or 24 when I first met him and I still find it difficult to believe his true age. He’s more mature than many guys I’ve met my own age. I think of him as a man, not just another guy.

He has some great qualities: he is honest, loyal, funny, sweet, intelligent, creative, and trustworthy. To top it off, I’m physically attracted to him as well. He possesses every quality I look for in a potential boyfriend. I have yet to discover a major flaw… I’m waiting to see what is lurking.

The most negative thing I know about him thus far is that he has bipolar disorder as well, which in my opinion isn’t much of a negative. Bipolar disorder certainly sucks at times, and can make life a living hell for awhile, but it does not change a person’s core personality.

I’m not certain if he’s attracted to me or not. There are some positive clues, but there is also the chance I am only seeing what I want to see. He has been coming over almost every day for the past two weeks. Usually, when he visits he spends between two and six hours with me – that time is typically spent talking. It had been a long time since I had an intelligent conversation with a man. We can talk about anything and I don’t get uncomfortable at all.

When he leaves, he gives me a bear hug, which initially made me a little uncomfortable due to my antipathy to being touched. Now I enjoy Dan touching me.

keeps pushing me toward sleeping with him but I have been holding back. I enjoy my newfound friendship with him and I do not want to jeopardize it – for the first time in a long time I want to get to know someone. I think a relationship needs to be built on a solid friendship.

I am also hesitant to take my friendship with Dan to the next level because I think I may be gravitating toward him because I another serious relationship with .

On this day..