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Time for Erick’s visit is getting closer and closer. I am starting to get nervous. I do not really know what is going to happen while he is here. I am certain we are going to have sex, that’s a given. I just do not know what we are going to talk about and what else we are going to do. Do we even like to do the same things anymore?

I am afraid that my fantasy is going to be ruined. In a parallel world Erick and I could have been a power couple, in this one, after all that has transpired; I just do not know.
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