Jun

24

A Great Day Out

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I had a great time today. :mrgreen:

I was babysitting McKayla, my niece, and I wanted to take her out somewhere. It was too late for the Zoo or Aquarium so I decided to take her to Incredible Pizza.

I didn’t want to go by ourselves so I invited my cousin’s kids, Jacob and Taylor, to come along. Jacob and Taylor are my second cousins, but they know me as their auntie. They are 11 and 9, respectively and McKayla is almost 21 months.

None of us had ever been to Incredible Pizza before, but we enjoyed ourselves. Jacob and Taylor rode the bumper cars and go karts. We played miniature golf, bowling, and tons of games. McKayla rode a mechanical horse, carousel, train, and I held her in my lap while we were playing a racing game. I let her steer.

We stayed at Incredible Pizza for over four hours. Afterwards, we went to the pet store and got some food for my snakes and gecko. The kids were excited about getting to feed my animals. They loved it.

It was good for me to get out of the house. I needed it and spending it with some of my favorite kids made a huge difference. It made me feel better than I’ve felt in a long time. They haven’t been able to spend much time with me the past several months because I was too depressed to leave the house the majority of the time or I was too irritable to let them come over to hang out.

I don’t think I can have children of my own1 but having them in my life takes some of the sting out of it. I love being an aunt and I’m good at it.

  1. which is probably for the best[↩]

Jun

24

Mommy Trashiest

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My mother is the reigning queen of self-destruction and bad luck. Unfortunately, for her the shit is about to hit the fan. I’m worried about what’s going to happen to her but I can’t be her mother anymore. It is time for her to just fucking grow up now.

I’ve been her protector for as far back as I can remember. Hell, one of my very first memories is of me helping her stash her drug paraphernalia from my grandpa.

I also have several memories of going to the bar with her while she was on the prowl for her next boyfriend. I was about four years old then because she had just left her husband, Dennis, for beating me black and blue from shoulders to knees.1

One of the nights she took me with her to the bar we were playing pool with some guy. I was too short to see over the pool table, so he held me while I leaned over it. was aiming and somehow mistook my eye for a pocket or something because the ball slammed right into my brow bone. I had a black eye for about 3 weeks.

Shortly after my eye healed from the billiard incident my and some guy were off Harvey Wallbangers2 and she was playing a pocket knife game with me. The object of the game was for me to close my eyes as tight as I could and she would ‘act’ like she was going to cut my eye out.3 Well, her ass must have forgotten that it was a game because she stabbed my eyelid; blood in the eye burns like hell.
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  1. I’m sure she would have stayed, but the babysitter reported her to DHS. After the investigation my grandparents threatened to take me if she went back to him.[↩]
  2. I can still remember the damn drink? WTF?[↩]
  3. Her version of ‘I got your nose!”[↩]