Feb

6

Life Goes On… Without Erick

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I hadn’t been talking to Erick too much between September and December. We talked, just not as frequently as we did this past August or before we split up so long ago. Back then we usually talked a minimum of three hours and as many as ten hours per day - every day. We never ran out of things to talk about.

Anyone who knows me or has dug around far enough into my blog knows that I wanted nothing more than to reconcile with Erick. I wanted that almost from the day we split up (four years ago) until very recently. In fact, a part of me still hopes to reconcile. However, that part has been getting smaller and smaller daily - since around November.

I no longer feel butterflies or giddiness when I see him on yahoo messenger or if he leaves me offline messages. I no longer feel sad if he doesn’t get online to talk to me several times a week. I no longer care if we have cybersex or not. I no longer care if he calls or comes to visit. I no longer think about him everyday. I no longer want to keep my romantic life on hold waiting for him to get over his divorce. The majority of these changes have taken place over the past five or six weeks.
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