Archive for January 16, 2008
My psychiatrist added Lexapro to my growing number of medications about two months ago which is when my normally sky high sex drive plummeted almost into oblivion. Anyone who knows me or has poked around in my blog knows I’m very sexual; whether that is a symptom of bipolar disorder or not is irrelevant. I enjoy sex very much; it is one of my favorite pastimes.
My lack of sex drive coincided with my desire to refrain from sex. Therefore, I did not think it was a side effect of one of my new medications. The strange thing was that even my desire for self-pleasure was gone. The few times I attempted to masturbate over the past two months left me unsatisfied; I was unable to get myself off for the first time in my life.
When I had sex with Stephen on Christmas Eve I was unable to cum. In the past, he always brought me to orgasm. Last week, when I had sex with Patrick I didn’t get off either, and he tried very hard. Typically, oral sex mixed with a little finger-banging action gets me off with a quickness. Unfortunately, that didn’t work either. To top it off my period was two weeks late.
The day after my attempted orgasm with Patrick I had sex with Peter. It was the first time we had sex together. He is skillful at oral sex and actual intercourse and I still could not cum. However, he did succeed in making me start my period due to the rough sex.
About twenty minutes ago I was speaking with Peter. We are trying to arrange another tryst. It caused me to start wondering why I have been unable to cum since mid-November. I googled the side effects of Lexapro and surprise, surprise, anorgasmia is one of them.
Well, guess what, anorgasmia is a side effect I refuse to tolerate. The Lexapro has helped my anxiety, however, I would rather worry about everything most of the time and still be able to have an orgasm than to not give a damn about anything but not be able to cum. It just isn’t worth it.
I don’t see my psychiatrist for another two months, but I’m going to start weaning myself off the Lexapro. If it just made it harder to cum I would consider staying on it, but it makes it impossible for me to cum. Who could put up with that? Not me, that’s for damn sure.