Archive for January 2, 2008
This New Year’s Eve started out great, but didn’t stay that way. Nothing terrible happened; the evening was a lot of fun until about an hour after the New Year.
Jess had called me around 9:30 and wanted to know what my plans were. I told her I was going to the bar with Joe and Tori. She said she was going to stay home. She is only nineteen and I didn’t want her sitting home bored on New Year’s Eve so I invited her along with us.
Back in the day I worked at the bar we planned to go to and Tori is still employed there. We knew the owner wouldn’t have a problem with Jess coming with us, despite her age. She’ll be twenty on January 7.
My sister and I haven’t been close since she met McKayla’s father. I didn’t like him from the get go and I made it well known. She chose him and I had to live with that. I tolerated him as necessary, but I never grew to like him. She finally wised up to his philandering ways and ended their relationship a few days before McKayla’s first birthday.
I love McKayla like she was my own daughter. In fact, thoughts of abandoning her stopped me from committing suicide the last time I was hell bent on dying by my own hand. She is the reason I checked myself into the hospital last January.
I have wanted to rekindle the relationship with Jess and I figured hanging out with her was a step in the right direction. I was wrong, or at least that is how I felt that night.