and I ‘broke up’ a month ago tomorrow and I caught myself thinking about him a couple times today. I’m not angry with him any longer, but I am still disappointed in him. I’m disappointed with myself as well. I let myself start to care for him simply because we were so sexually compatible and it was so easy for me to confide in him.

I didn’t know a whole lot about him as a person, but what I know about I liked – for the most part. He is sweet, funny, attentive, intelligent, sensitive, cute, caring, and fabulous in bed.

I didn’t like how he flip-flopped all the time. To be honest, I think he may be bipolar as well. He can be very inconsiderate, thoughtless, dishonest, selfish, and fake.

I am well aware that no one is perfect. However, some flaws cannot be tolerated. It isn’t anyone’s fault, it’s just nature. The flaws I cannot tolerate may not be all that bad in the opinion of others, but they are things that I cannot stand.

I am an honest person and I absolutely will not tolerate dishonesty. I have been lied to by so many people whom have been an important part of my life; hurtful lies that sliced right through my heart. That hurt left me cold, cynical, and distant. I had to protect myself somehow. After all, if you don’t let them get close, they can’t hurt you.

It is for the best that Jeff and I sever all ties. At least until we get our heads straight and I get over the fact that I seen him suck another man’s cock and then fuck that man’s wife while we were at the club. That was just a bit too much to handle.

On this day..