I was over at ’s earlier. Tonight was the first night I’ve seen him since the weekend before last. After the weekend of the 20th I needed a break from him. I hung out with the girls and had a good time.We’ve talked every day, we just didn’t see each other. The absence did me good, I was able to step back and evaluate the situation. I actually missed him a little bit. I was surprised.

Wednesday, we talked about give a shot, but didn’t make a decision. I know I said he was in the friend zone, and he was, but things change. I have been letting my guard down bit by bit and and I don’t feel like a fortress anymore. I’m getting comfortable and I’ve been truly opening up to him – which is a HUGE step for me.

We talked a lot tonight. We were outside for about an hour – without his roommate. I wanted to pull him toward me and kiss him several times, but I didn’t. Eventually, I got the balls to pull him toward me. I was sitting on the truck trailer and he had been standing close. I started playing with his nipples, (I LOVE nipples) but I didn’t kiss him.

We went inside and hung out with his roomie for a bit. About 10:30 I decided to leave because he has to get up for at 6am. He wanted me to stay while he smoked a cigarette (he has to smoke outside). I sat back down where I had been and then I pulled him toward me and started playing with a tiny layer of fat on his hips and gradually worked my way down to his ass. I still didn’t kiss him.

He walked me to my car. We leaned against it and talked awhile longer. When I was about to leave I pulled him toward me again and we held each other. Then I turned his face toward mine and we kissed. To my surprise, I felt a little something. He held me tight and it felt good. I could tell he had been wanting to do it for awhile, but he wanted me to make the first move. He knows a fairly good-sized chunk of my history and decided the smart thing to do was wait until I was ready. He knew the best way to that was to wait for me to make a move.

We are officially “dating” now – we sealed the deal with several kisses.

On this day..