I decided to go ahead and pursue the charge of I filed against my job.

I initially reported the discrimination January 23, 2007. They requested a written statement after I got out of the hospital. I faxed it to them February 27, 2007 but did not hear anything back until late March or early April (I can’t really remember). A federal investigator had contacted me and wanted to pursue my case. He sent me sworn affadavits to sign and wanted all the evidence I could provide.

I was struggling with the choice because things have changed at my job the past few weeks. My team leader has completely changed his attitude toward me. Another reason I was questioning my decision was because did clear my record of the attendance occurrences I incurred while I was in the hospital. However, their recent actions and behavior does not excuse the initial repugnant treatment.

I damned near went home on January 22nd and killed myself because the things they told me. I was already VERY ill and I needed professional help, but they made it a lot worse. They did everything they could (including threatening to fire me) to keep me taking off and seeking help. They acted like I was taking off on some beach resort vacation rather than going to an inpatient psychiatric hospital.

After re-reading my posts from January, February, and the beginning of March I decided I would pursue the charge because those posts reminded me of how bad they had treated me.

I had until May 10 to return the paperwork to the . I stayed up all night May 9th and a large part of the day May 10th getting it ready. I barely got everything faxed in time, but I did do it. I sent them 92 pages of evidence. They had told me that Directv would receive the charge of discrimination within 10 days.

I was called into Human Resources this afternoon. They had received the complaint and wanted my side of the story. I sat in that office telling my side for an hour. The HR consultant seemed like she cared and she questioned why I didn’t come see them when it happened. Well, for one, the HR office was closed when it happened and the way I was treated that night (January 22nd) sent me over the edge and I ended up going to the hospital. I didn’t have time to report it to them. Besides, I didn’t feel like they would help me anyway. When the interview was over she said I had some very concrete information and it would be investigated. She told me that she will be talking to my team leader and a few others I had mentioned.

I felt a bit guilty because she made it clear Jason will be dealt with. He has been a lot nicer lately and I don’t want to get him in trouble, but he deserves it. I almost killed myself that night because the way he treated me and the things he said. She even told me there is no need for me to feel guilty about it.

She’s right. I shouldn’t feel guilty for something he did. He hurt me intentionally and pushed me over the edge, now he’ll have to face the consequences.

The shit is going to hit the fan and I know it. I hope I’m prepared for the fallout.