Name a difficult/painful experience of loss.

the loss of my innocence, the inability to maintain healthy relationships, and my own personal identity due to fourteen years of sexual and physical .


Describe how it has affected you.

it made me feel , rage, humiliation, pain, and numbness. I dealt with it by isolating myself and shutting down. I built huge defensive walls that would make the Berlin wall look like a picket fence. I stopped expressing emotion. It made me blame and hate myself. I’ve been unable to maintain a long-term romantic relationship and has kept my familial relationships rocky at best.

Where are you in the mourning process?

I’m still reacting because I was numb for so long. I’m very angry about my childhood and the lack of protection. I am trying to re-parent myself.

What do you need to do?

I need to process the events and express my to the important people in my life. I also need to learn to men and recognize my own self-worth. I need to learn that my childhood experiences were not my fault and I do have a right to be happy.