Discharge and My Recovery
I was released from inpatient treatment 2/2/07 but I was still partial inpatient until today. So I am officially discharged from Brookhaven Hospital. I’m going to miss a lot of people from there. I made some really good friends. Private hospitals are awesome.
I had no clue what to expect when I went there. I half-expected everyone to be insane, running around drooling, and flipping out. It wasn’t like that at all. The psychiatric patients (like me) were seemingly normal except for the suicidal ideations. There were several rehab patients there too. Most of the employees were cool as hell. I actually enjoyed myself most of the time I was there.
I learned a lot in the hospital. I am confident that I can get better. I have learned healthy coping skills, what my triggers are and how to manage them. I’ve also started dealing with my past… all of it. No more locking it in a steel box. It’s been very painful and I still have a long journey ahead of me, but I will get over it and move on with my life.
When I got out last Friday I had a date with Noah. I didn’t really feel like going out so we stayed in and watched a movie. He is a really nice guy and he treats me like a queen. It’s a shock to my system. We ended up having sex and I actually let him spend the night. I rarely do that. I slept like a baby in his arms.
Noah is a really sweet guy, but I need to focus on my recovery right now. I’m going to have to talk to him and let him know that right now what I really need are friends. If he cares then he will accept it and be patient with me. If not, that’s ok. I won’t have any hard feelings. I have to regain my sense of self and love myself before I can get into another serious relationship.
I’m proud of myself. I am finally setting boundaries in my life and being honest with myself about what I really want. I am not as worried about pleasing others anymore. That took a huge burden off my shoulders.
On this day..
- The Morning After - 2010
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I’m a thirty-something bipolar woman, an advanced tech agent with a pay tv provider, tax preparer for a local charity, current Tulsa inhabitant, and I’m one credit shy of an Associate Degree in Liberal Arts. I’m working on recovery from self-injury and working toward stabilizing my bipolar symptoms. Recovery is very important to me. I’ve been mostly single the past few years and plagued by a seemingly never-ending series of jackasses, assholes, and married men. I have no children of my own, but I have lots of nieces and nephews I love to spoil.