When do you feel the most inadequate or put down?

I feel inadequate when i see shiny happy people. I feel that way because I think I’m incapable and undeserving of happiness. It also makes me feel bitter, resentful and jealous.


How do you handle that situation?

I put myself down and isolate. I stay away from people as much as possible.

How would you like to handle it?

I’d like to be one of those shiny happy people. At the very least I want to show everyone and myself that I don’t care what they think about me and I want to believe it myself.

What role do you play in your significant relationships?

It depends on what kind of relationship. To my I was the responsible know-it-all. With men I’ve been the martyr. With friends I’ve been the chaotic one.

In what ways does it effect you?

My needs have gone unmet. I’ve lost my sense of self. I have a lot of pain and resentment built up inside me.

What do you need to change to gain balance of healthy give and take in your relationships?

I need to regain my sense of self and learn to me first. I need to find a way to break the cycle of misery in my life.

On this day..