Feb

20

Cut the Bullshit

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I had a therapy appt. That doctor cracks me up. He’s about 65 years old and funny as shit. He wants me to tell my team lead to kiss my ass if they fire me. He also wants me to consult an attorney even if doesn’t fire me because how they treated me before I went to the hospital. He said they are discriminating against me because I’m bipolar.

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Feb

20

Maybe No One

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I’m just going through the motions
Maybe no one will notice
All the Pain festering inside
Maybe no one will hear my tormented cries.

I will drown in my Happy memories
Maybe no one will catch on
Does anyone know who I really am?
Maybe no one cares.

Bring on the Pain; it is what I know.
Maybe no one will hurt me again
I buried my heart in a deep black hole.
Maybe no one will find it.

Why do I care what other people think of me?
Maybe no one knows I’m here -
Trying to remember no one can be trusted
Maybe no one understands what is wrong.

The facade of normality is exhausting.
Maybe no one sees past the mask.
I long for the peaceful oblivion of nothingness
Maybe no one will save me.

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Feb

20

Story of My Life

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Trapped –
In a black hole
Clawing at the darkness
Trying to find a way OUT –

The more I fight, the deeper I sink –
Quicksand engulfs me.
I’m on the verge of giving up –
But wait…

Was that a speck of light?!?
Did a shadow fall –
Across my tear-streaked Face?
Is someone out there?

TALK TO ME, PLEASE!
Are you there?
HELP me out of this shuttered empty room
No, STOP! Please, don’t leave me –

Abandoned –
Alone –
Unloved –
Story of my life.

Written 8/18/05

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