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Feb
10
I know what it is like to want to die
Filed Under Self-Injury, Suicide, Thoughts | Leave a Comment
“I know what it’s like to want to die.
How it hurts to smile.
How you try to fit in but you can’t.
How you hurt yourself on the outside -
to try to kill the thing on the inside.”
Life is going on around you and you are part of it, but you’re not. Everything happening seems far away. Numbness consumes you. You pull away from everyone because you don’t want to hurt them or burden them with your problems and feelings. Nobody wants to hear those. They all have their own shit to deal with. You ache to join their lives, join the world, but you don’t know how, so you sink further into the black hole. It’s like quicksand and you see no way out.
Passersby sometimes try to lend a hand, but you’re too afraid to reach out for them. So you stand there paralyzed and eventually they give up and leave. You feel so alone. You doubt that anyone loves you. Before long you begin to think that everyone would be better off with you dead.
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