Archive for February, 2007
Last night, after Jess picked up McKayla, Noah came over to see me. After I let him in the apartment he followed me to the living room. I had my back to him so he wrapped his arms around me (I LOVE when guys do that) and started kissing the back of my neck. It felt so good that my eyes involuntarily rolled back a little. Then he started squeezing my breasts. (Damn this guy is a quick learner – he knows most of the buttons to push to get me horny as hell. We had only had sex 2 nights previously – several times both night though
I had a therapy appt. That doctor cracks me up. He’s about 65 years old and funny as shit. He wants me to tell my team lead to kiss my ass if they fire me. He also wants me to consult an attorney even if Directv doesn’t fire me because how they treated me before I went to the hospital. He said they are discriminating against me because I’m bipolar.
I’ve struggled for the past seven or eight hours with a decision. I wanted to cut, but somehow, my will kept me from it. That was really rough. I haven’t had to resist temptation like that in a very long time. One of the things that helped was looking at a few pics from past lost battles.
Originally, I took the pictures because I thought the blood was beautiful. The later pics were taken to deter me from doing it again. I guess they served their purpose, at least for tonight. They deterred me from cutting or bloodletting. Pictures are posted on the next page. They are graphic and may be a trigger for other cutters. Due to the graphic nature of these pictures, you must be logged in to see them.
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