I confessed the truth to last night. I told him that the began when we were seeing each other. I told him about the as well. I also told him the truth about what happened on New Years Eve.


To my amazement, Nick wasn’t surprised by my confession. I don’t know where things stand with us right now. I don’t really want to know what he thought about what I told him either. I was afraid of what his answer might be.

I want to get better and I told him I was thinking about checking myself in to a hospital for awhile.

He told me that he had dated cutters before but that was pretty much all he said. It did seem like he gained more understanding about me. I was relieved that he didn’t give me the lecture that everyone else had.

So far everyone I have told has given me the obligatory speech about caring about me and to stop hurting myself and that the next time I feel like cutting to call. Yeah, whatever.

On this day..