Jan

24

I Can't Live Like This Anymore!

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I can’t do this anymore. It’s just too hard. I’ve been feeling very suicidal all month. I’m so fucked up in the head right now. All I want to do is kill myself and get it over with.

I found a website designed by a woman that almost killed herself. She’s trying to help people that are in the dark place she was in once. She made a lot of sense and I know if I don’t get some professional help I am going to end up killing myself.

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Jan

24

DirecTV doesn't care if I die as long as I come to work

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Table of contents for

  1. Letter to Mr. Johnson with Directv
  2. doesn't care if I die as long as I come to
  3. Rebuttal to Jordan's Accusations
  4. My Job is Safe… For Now
  5. Equal Employment Opportunity Commission
  6. Directv Bastards
  7. Directv Has Balls
  8. My DirecTV Personnel File
  9. Bipolarchick 2; Directv 0

My job would rather me kill myself than miss to get help.

I’m bipolar. I’ve been fighting suicidal urges for several months. They are getting harder and harder to resist. I have resorted to cutting (again) and . I hadn’t cut in years until December 05. After a few really good sessions I’d be good for a month or two. Until New years eve my last cutting episode was in September. On New years bad things happened and I was . When I’m intoxicated it’s really hard to ignore the urges to hurt myself.

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