Shortly after I got home from my phone rang. It was a nurse from Dr. what’s his name’s office. She told me that the lab report was back and the doctor wanted me to come in Monday morning for the LEEP. Great, two whole days notice. I didn’t like the urgency in her voice. It made me extremely uneasy.

Of course, I’ve been worrying about it all evening.

I’m off work Monday, but not Tuesday. I’m not sure if I’m gonna be in a lot of pain afterwards or not. I certainly was after my first appointment with that doctor. I’ll ask my manager if he will override REM so I can have most of Tuesday off just in case I’m in agony. I only have 7 1/2 hours of PTO so I’ll have to go in for at least a half hour. I figure that even if I’m hurting I can work an hour or so.

Not that I’ve been feeling very sexual, but after the procedure I can’t have for four weeks. FOUR WEEKS! Geez, I’m not sure I can follow those orders or not. I wonder what damage it would do if I only waited two weeks. I don’t want to ask the doctor, I don’t wanna get yelled at. I’ll figure something out I guess.I had to take a couple anxiety pills earlier to calm me down. It wouldn’t be so bad if I knew more what to expect, but I don’t know anyone who has had to have this procedure. If it was happening to someone else, I probably wouldn’t think much of it. The reality doesn’t sink in until it is actually happening to you and then it really hits you and believe me, it sucks ass.