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Oct
30
Astroglide isn't guaranteed to work
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This morning, I had to get up and take Tori to work at the bar like I usually do on Sundays. I hang out with her there for a few hours or until the end of her shift – depending on who all is up there and how much fun I’m having.
We were sitting at our table in the back playing cards (BTW, I was winning LOL), when Tori said, “Holy shit, isn’t it a small world.” Oh man, did I really want to turn around and see who it was? You never know who is going to suddenly pop back into your life. Instead of turning around, I asked her who it was and she said it was Johnnie (Jonathon).
Damn, talk about a blast from the past. I was almost scared to turn around. I didn’t have to, he walked straight back to our table and sat down like a single day hadn’t passed. He is about 6?2 and is very muscular. He definitely has a hot body. I had forgotten how hot he was.
Oct
22
Derek
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I hadn’t been feeling very sexual since the diagnosis. Sex was the last thing on my mind actually. I felt defective and didn’t want to be touched.
Saturday night, I was getting drunk and stoned off my ass (isn’t escapism grand?). Derek called and wanted to come over. I let him, but told him I wasn’t in the mood for sex. He said that was okay. So anyways, we talked and smoked a bowl.
He told me that he wanted to see me because he was moving to Los Angeles soon. The movie he was working on (”Isolation”) was purchased and they wanted him to come out and start working on some other projects. I’m happy for him. His dreams are coming true.
I didn’t want to be a downer, but he could tell that something was wrong with me. I think he had expected me to be upset because he was moving. I finally told him about the diagnosis and he tried to comfort me for awhile, I thought it was really sweet.
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Oct
21
Post-Diagnosis
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I have gotten over the shock and anger from the doctor’s news and now I’m moving into the acceptance stage. I didn’t go to work the last three days. I was just too emotional. I couldn’t take the stress of being around 100s of coworkers and helping stupid people figure out how to use their directv equipment, (you’d be surprised how many people call me because they have no volume – turn mute off, dummy; snowy screen – change to the correct channel output; black screen – turn the tv on, dipshit; etc.) Tori has been here with me since the diagnosis.
Tori is awesome. She is always there for me. Once again her and Dudney are helping me through shitty times. I wonder where I’d be without them… well, actually, I probably don’t really want to know.
Anyways, we’re getting fucked up tonight… yep yep, we’re getting fucked up.
Oct
18
I recently got medical insurance so I didn’t have to go to planned parenthood anymore. The only reasons I ever went there are because only women work there and the exams are free. My new doctor is a man (a handsome man BTW). So I wasn’t in any rush to have the exam done, but I knew it was overdue and my mind kept nagging me to have it done… I should’ve known something was wrong then.
Oct
15
Dischorus 2006
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Dudney and I went to Dischorus ‘06 in Oklahoma City yesterday. It was an all day music festival at the zoo amphitheater, which is the best venue I’ve ever been to. It was huge and there was stadium type seating and lots of shade (unlike most music festivals I’ve been to.)
There were lots of good bands there: Seether, Shinedown, Crossfade, Breaking Benjamin, Buck Cherry, Hailstorm, Rikets and 4-5 other bands
We saw a shitload of hotties there. (I’m bi, so there was double the eye candy for me.)
All the bands were good (except the first two.) Their music wasn’t bad per se, but the fuckers were talking smack about two of my favorite bands.
Jealousy is a bad thing, boys and girls.
