I’ve had an ephiphany. I have finally been released from the blissful stupor of denial, and it hurts all over again; just as it did in the hours, days, weeks, and months afterward. It amazes me how fresh the breakup with seems.

This realization was instigated by my regret for pushing away. I was searching within myself; trying to understand why I keep doing this to every man who comes into my life.

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