Apr

30

My Crazy-Ass Birthday Party

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Well, I had one helluva good time last night. I woke up in bed naked next to Nick – Shawna’s ex fiancee. I was shocked. Good thing me and her aren’t friends anymore or this would really fuck shit up.

Nikki and me went to pick Nick up. We had invited him to the party when we ran into him at the Staind/Three Days Grace show on April 25th. I had never thought of him sexually, hell, I never even judged his hotness lol. When a guy is with your friend, you just kinda block them out or something.

Anyways, when we got to the bar, tori, mom, brad, auntie, stacy, lisa, randy, jay, patrick, luis, chris, dena, sean, jenny, joe, joe momma, granny, charlie, pat, ronnie, traci, hunter, medea, cameron, tim, don, amber 2, and martin was there. I know there was a shitload more people there, but I can’t remember any others.

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Apr

27

Things are looking up

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I start my new job at DirecTV May 1st. I’m excited. I’ll have a real job again. Working at the bar has been tons of fun, but the money wasn’t cutting it. I met lots of fun people and hot guys though lol. I’ll still hang out there as much as I can.

We’re having a party there tomorrow – for my birthday (cuz I’ll be working on my bday this year -dammit) and tori’s going away party. It’s gonna be kick fuckin ass

Tori’s moving to San Antonio for awhile to heal her relationship with her dad (my uncle). I’m gonna miss the hell out of her. She’s become my best friend and partner in crime.

Apr

2

Relapse

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I relapsed and started cutting again tonight. I did it even before I realized what exactly I was doing. It had been 4 months today since I last cut… even though then I tried to kill myself. I would like to die now. My life sucks ass. The only thing that keeps me going these days is Tori, and Granny and Pawpa.

I really thought Brian #2 might be different from all the other assholes that I’ve been involved with in the past, but I was wrong… boy was I.

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