Mar
30
Holy shit – overdue update!
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Holy Shit! It has been over 4 months since my last real blog update. I guess I’ve been slacking. I’ve been pretty busy dealing with the stuff life has thrown at me for the last few months. A lot of it has been good… but a lot has been shitty as well. At least I’m still alive, right? I will recap as much as I can remember since November.
Mar
3
Motherhood
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I started my period this morning, right on time. For the last two weeks I’d been worried that I was pregnant and somewhere along the line convinced myself I was. I got really used to the idea and began to hope it was true. Then last night I had a dream that I wasn’t pregnant and that it was not the right time for me to have a baby. I am saddened because of it. I wonder if I’ll ever be a mother.












