Inter-Office Casual Sex
I just woke up a little while ago. I always check my horoscope; it’s one of the first things I do. Here is what part of it said this morning and it is so accurate, it’s almost scary!
You’re simultaneously drawn to and repelled by someone eccentric (not to say downright weird). Give in a little to their unusual charms — you’ll know soon enough whether you can stand it. -
The someone it is referring to is one of the managers at my job. I met him a little over a year and a half ago through Raymond, when he worked at Cingular. I had a one night stand with him. I was drunk and I didn’t really want to fuck him, but he was very persistent and I gave in so I could get it over with and go to sleep. I always regretted doing it, that is until the last couple of weeks.
His name is Derek and he started calling me and stuff. I went over to his house the other night to watch a movie and we ended up in bed and I’ll be damned if the sex wasn’t great. The last time I didn’t really let myself enjoy it because I didn’t really want to do it. That was definitely not the case this time. We had sex a couple times that night (shortly afterwards, I went home; much to his disappointment.) He expected me to stay the night. I’ve been fighting this feeling of being both attracted and repelled to and from him the last 2 1/2 weeks or so, and it’s getting worse now that we’re sleeping together. One minute, I’ll see him and want to rip his clothes off right there in the office and other times I’ll see him and want to run the other way as fast as my chubby legs will carry me.
Yesterday, he sat down at the table with me and some of my friends during our break. He invited me and Dana (my best friend) over to his house this Saturday. His brother lives with him so I think he wants to try to hook him and Dana up… I kinda wanna go, but that other part of me is like “hell no Jen! You can’t do this, stop it now…”
On this day..
- Weird Dream - 2011
- Remembering My Lost Babies - 2011
- Happiness Has Abandoned Me Yet Again - 2010
- Our GC Video - 2007
About BipolarChick (599 posts)
I’m a thirty-something bipolar woman, an advanced tech agent with a pay tv provider, tax preparer for a local charity, current Tulsa inhabitant, and I’m one credit shy of an Associate Degree in Liberal Arts. I’m working on recovery from self-injury and working toward stabilizing my bipolar symptoms. Recovery is very important to me. I’ve been mostly single the past few years and plagued by a seemingly never-ending series of jackasses, assholes, and married men. I have no children of my own, but I have lots of nieces and nephews I love to spoil.