Ok, so technically it’s xmas. So merry x-mas to all you x-tians.

To me it’s just another day. Xmas was never really special to me. It was always a day that got fucked up either by mom and getting into it and him beating the hell out of her and/or us or having to go to charities to get gifts. It totally sucked. Hence my scrooge-ness… lol

Oh well, bygones.

This week was a pretty good week. I worked quite a bit of overtime and my next check is gonna kick ass. That’s the check I’ll have to get everyone’s gifts with, which makes me feel like an ass. I just couldn’t afford them sooner. I hope my understands.

Thursday after me, robert, dana, michael, tina, trent, larry, val, christina, walter, and melissa went out and had a few drinks. It was . We all got on the subject of and threesomes and such… it was pretty funny. We went to Fridays. I was the last one to order dinner and I ordered “fish and tits” they are never gonna let me live that down. I turned as red as rudolph’s nose. Damn freudian slips… So ummm yeah, those coworkers now know that I’m bi. Oh well. A bunch of us has been going out at least once a week and it’s been awesome. I didn’t realize how much I missed socializing in the real world instead of hiding behind my keyboard. They are all awesome. I my job and my coworkers. It still amazes me how much being happy with your job can affect your life so much and vice versa. I realize now that a lot of my past misery was partly due to hating my job and feeling trapped in it. I have a lot to be thankful for this year.

On the only sad note in my life right now, I miss . I hate like hell to admit it too. We’ve been officially split up for a month today. It’s somewhat depressing. I wonder if it’s him I truly miss or if it’s being with someone that I miss. I know he isn’t the right man for me and no matter how hard I try a relationship will never work between us, a fact that my heart is struggling with accepting. Stupid heart…

Oh well, my philosophy has always been “everything happens for a reason.” It will work out the way it is supposed to. Time will tell and in the meantime, I’m going to live my life to the fullest.

On this day..