Ok, the GC roadtrip gave me time to think about my life. Ya know, kinda to step outside of everything going on and re-evaluate some things. I decided to break up with and I did it today. It was kinda hard, because I do care about him, but it’s a matter of bad timing. He’s working 2 jobs and going to school part-time and I’m working fulltime and going to school full-time… so that leaves almost 0 time for us to be together.

Besides that, it’s a unnecessary distraction, with this renewed desire to accomplish all my , I need to focus on attaining them and not maintaining an almost hopeless relationship. Maybe I could find time for casual , but not a serious commitment. I’m still young and I feel like I’m too young to settle down right now, especially because I know Brian isn’t my Mr. Right. I’ve always known that. We’ve been going on and off for 8 years now and he has always been Mr. Right Now.

I was starting to think about settling for him, but fuck that. If I’m going to make a serious commitment, it’s going to be with someone that I feel is my soulmate. I don’t see the point in settling for someone just so I have someone. I would rather be alone. I’m just as happy alone as I am coupled up, actually I’m happier single. I have the freedom to do as I wish, I don’t have to worry about getting hurt or hurting anyone else, I don’t have to answer to anyone… It’s nice, very niiiiiiiiiice! :)

After I told the girls, they declared it a girls night and we are getting a hotel room and throwing a party. I’m going to get and mourn/celebrate.