began molesting me when I was 6 years old & mom was pregnant with . After was born, he began beating me & mom & continued the molesting. I told my mom 3 years later, while she was pregnant with . They were fighting & she had kicked him out. I foolishly thought I could finally let her in on the secret that had been eating away at me. She ranted & raved & swore he would pay, but less than a week later she let him come back & I was thought of as the liar. To this day she doesn’t acknowledge what Larry did to me & continued to do until she finally left him- 5 days after my 12th birthday. That is one of the fundamental issues in our relationship. I still hold a lot of resentment towards her. If she would just admit it, then maybe I could forgive her…
We went to DVIS, a domestic violence shelter for women and their children. They made us do all kinds of counseling and crap. We were there for about a month and moved to another shelter. We stayed there for awhile then mom went back to college and we moved to some section 8 (gov’t funded) apts. She began using drugs again and bar whoring. to be continued…

I still deal with those things on a daily basis. I wonder if I’ll ever get over them. How do I begin to let it all go? The hatred, the resentment, the helplessness….?

On this day..