Here I am again. I couldn’t sleep longer than 5 hours. I was having weird dreams again, but I don’t remember what they were. I’ve been sitting here thinking about the 2 men I have loved most in my life.

I have always felt everything happens for a reason. Sometimes it may take me years to figure out that reason, but I always do it. I’ve already told the story of & me. We broke up 6 months ago & I still can’t let myself get attached to another man. Well a new one at least. I guess I’ll talk about the twisted relationship I’ve had with .

A couple weeks after I broke up with Erick, Raymond & Brandi (his wife) wanted me to come over. At first, we were all sitting around, talking & drinking. After I was beginning to get tipsy they started hinting around about the 3 of us having , particularly Raymond. It made me both nervous & excited. He was the best lover I ever had & I had always regretted not having break up with him. This encounter was almost 3 years after our horrible break up.

Anyways, he started flirting like crazy. I was a little uncomfortable because he was doing it right in front of his wife. I didn’t really understand the concept of open marriage then. I decided I wasn’t enough, so I went to the kitchen and started slamming shots of buttery nipples (i knew it would take quite a few of those to do the job). I was bent over, layering one of the shots when Ray followed me. He walked behind me & rubbed his pelvis against my butt. He was already hard. I had forgotten how big it was. I moved over & layered 4 more shot glasses & slammed them all. He knew I was drinking to get brave. So he knew I was at least considering their proposition (I had never had a threesome before).

He started playing with my boobs & kissing on my neck. (damn him, he remembered my weak spots). Then he put his hand up my shorts and started playing with my butt. Brandi came into the kitchen and started sucking on my nipples. A few mins later we started kissing and I began rubbing her pierced nips through her shirt. Ray unfastened her overalls and they dropped to the floor. We slowly moved towards the living room. Brandi and I were starting to make out hardcore. Ray went to the living room and turned the couch around. He took off my shorts and guided me to the couch. Brandi followed. I sat down and he pulled off my panties. Brandi ran off to her bedroom in search of her toys. He began doing what he is best at… eating cooch. His tongue can magic. When Brandi came back, she pushed him out of the way and started using her vibe on me, after a little while she started eating me out. He was sucking on my nips and kissing me again. The sensation of having 2 people pleasuring me was incredibly intense at first… talk about sensory overload. The 3 of us continued pleasuring each other for hours. We had more 3ways over the next couple months. Then after surgery there was a pregnancy scare. He was trying to get me to move in with them and do this Morman thing, I wasn’t with that so we ended our arrangement and we are just friends now.

On this day..