After much agonizing over a decision, and I mutually decided to break up on April 4th. It wasn’t something either of us really wanted to, but there were just too many complications and potential ramifications if we had followed our original plan.

The original plan was for him to leave his wife and for me to move to North Platte to be with him. In the end, I just couldn’t. There were several contributing factors to our decision. We still each other immensely, however, isn’t always enough.

After it was all said and done. I hurt so much. I was in agony. I began thinking about the sadness of it all as well as all the other things that were wrong in my life and it got the best of me.

I tried to kill myself and came really close to succeeding.

No matter what I do or say, I will always love Erick. No one could ever possibly take his place in my heart and that is the most tragic thing of all.

On this day..