Formula for Baby Lucas


May 9, 2015 at 4:59pm

Faith in humanity has been restored. I just got a call and my wallet was recovered. IDK if it has the money left in it yet, but it does have some irreplaceable pictures and stuff. Maybe they will turn my WIC folder in too.

May 9, 2015 at 6pm

Most of the money was missing, but they didn’t find my emergency $20 and everything else was still in it. We had already canceled our cards and checks and I had already gotten a new copy of my driver’s license, but I’m still thankful someone turned the wallet in. I’m sentimental and some irreplaceable things were in it. I have since moved them to a safe place. My WIC folder has yet to be recovered, but I’m still hoping and praying it will be found.

May 11, 2015 at 7:51pm

It’s been a great day!!! Someone turned in my WIC folder this morning and my grandpa-in-law surprised me with a new engine and transmission for my car as a belated birthday and Mother’s Day gift! I’ve got a working car again!!! YAY!!!!!! *happy dance*

I deleted the gofundme page and canceled the donations, but thanks again for all your help! It’s heartening to know there are still so many caring people left in this world. 



Clearing the Air

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My Bucket List

After so many of my loved ones passing away over the past 2 1/2 years I updated the Bucket List I started when Pawpa was sick. A lot of the things I want to do before I die involve traveling. I hope to have the money to travel to all the places I want to go.



2 Year Anniversary of Pawpa’s Passing

I still think of Pawpa at least a few times a day, especially this past week. I miss him something fierce. I regret not being there for him as much as I should have. I wonder what advice he would have to offer about the state of my life. I ask myself what Pawpa would want me to do.

I haven’t been to his gravesite since his burial. I’m ashamed, but I just haven’t been able to force myself to go. It would keep me from continuously pretending that Pawpa is still alive but away somewhere.



Another Hiatus Over.

I figured it’s time to dust off the old blog and start writing again. The past 2-ish years have been emotionally exhausting. I’ve kept most of my feelings bottled up and kept my dark thoughts secret. I started my own home business. I made amends with Shawna and began rebuilding our friendship. My brother accepted me again. I lost and regained friendships. I made new friends. I lost 70lbs. I fell in love. I was loved. I sabotaged my relationship. My heart was shit on. The loss of my relationship with Pandabear was the worst lost since my beloved Pawpa’s death.  


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